Consumed: Always & Forever | Shawn Mendes |

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Marriage and a baby are always the thing that people want and envision, but once you get it all it's hard work to keep it going strong and better than ever.

Past three months since having our daughter have been this breaking point for us. Everything was fine in the beginning Analyn was a good sleeper and eater, but now it's a fight for everything. With little sleep on each of our ends, were both at each other throat and right now we're just not in a good place.

"Shawn can you please make sure she burps before you lay her down. We don't need her to choke on her own vomit." I shouted from the kitchen as I put the rest of my breast milk in the freezer after labeling them.

"I know this already Yvette! Thank you for the update." I heard Shawn snarling from the living room as he burped our daughter and walked around with her as she fussed about.

I rolled my eyes quickly biting my tongue so that we don't engage in yet another argument today. That would've been lucky number 3. I closed the fridge and began cleaning up the kitchen and putting away the leftovers. I needed a distraction from the hard day we all seemed to be having. But with no luck I heard my daughter vomit and then Shawns loud "ugh again!" When I went to walking towards them quickly.

"I got her, gimme. Go shower and I'll bathe her in the sink. Would you mind just bring me her clothes and baby soap?" I took a screaming Ana from his arms and I began removing her vomit filled clothing and rocking her to calm down.

She just waved his hands and he walked upstairs very visibly annoyed as he stomped his feet along the way.

"Hey pretty girl. What's going on with you? Let's shower and try to go to sleep?" I cooed over my beautiful 4 month old. She just made a bunch of whines and coos.

Shawn came downstairs, his vomited shirt removed and his bare body on display, I couldn't help but follow him as he walked to the kitchen with the items in his hand. I followed him never leaving my eyes off him.

"I'm gonna go shower. Her stuffs there, I'll be out in a few." He walked back upstairs never acknowledging me.

I felt a little hurt honestly, but I just shrugged it off and I went to attending to our daughter.

After her bath and a lotion massage Analyn was knocked out and I gently placed her in her crib, kissing her little precious head and just admiring her for a moment. Despite all this chaos that we were dealing with I wouldn't regret it, but I wasn't to sure about Shawn at this point. Lately he's just been off and very moody, I mean we both have been but for Shawn to be like that was so new and foreign to me.

I set her baby monitor to her side of her changing table and I took the other one with me as I left her room and I walked into the bedroom. I sat on the edge of the bed taking a moment to myself, I felt so tired and stinky honestly. I looked at my tired worn out clothing and my hair was a complete mop, I went into the bathroom, unaware that Shawn was still in there till I heard the water running and I was met the steam as soon as I opened the door.

"Oh. Sorry, I thought your were finished. I'll just come back, sorry." I turned to exit the bathroom suddenly.

"It's not anything you haven't already seen Yvette." He said in a cold tone, making me feel even more embarrassed and slightly annoyed at him.

"Clearly you want to be left alone, so Im leaving." I shot back my tone visibly annoyed.

I turned to shut the door, and I heard the shower door open and he came walking out naked in all his glory, wet feet hitting the marble tiles, his god like physique on full display with water dripping down his body like honey and his hair a wet curled mess.

"C"mere." Was all he said, snatching my wrist and pulling me into the bathroom and kissing me feverishly, tongue all in my mouth and hands lifting my shirt over me quickly.

"No, stop. I'm disgusting." I tried to push his hands off my shirt. Feeling so self conscious, Shawn wast having it.

"Yvette, your fucking beautiful to me, every single part of you baby." He kissed me again and proceeding to remove my clothing quickly and effortlessly.

"Shawn— before I could finish he literally hoisted me up around his waist and walked back into the shower. "Yvette, I love you, all of you baby." He held on to my thighs giving me a tight squeeze as our lips met again while the water cascaded around us, instantly making me gasp.

Shawn pushed me up against the shower wall, kissing feverishly down to my neck, shoulders and all over my chest, whispering, "Mines, all mines." My fingered wedges into his dark wet curls my eyes rolling back to my head and a small whimper coming out of my lips, as I tried to control the severe aching between my legs.

"Shawn, touch me please." I begged eager for his touch, it was like a drug and I needed it now.

"He kissed up my chest and back to my neck before getting to the lobe of my ear and whispering, "As you wish baby." With that he pushed inside of me painfully slow, his grip tightly on thighs and his face buried in my neck as he moan loudly as i tighten around him, "Oh fuck baby." He was a mess already. I moaned so loudly, as he began to pick up speed, my ass slamming into the wall making a wet smooshing sound hard. "Mmmm, Shawn. God I've missed you, this. Ahhh don't stop baby please." I scratched his lower back as I gripped on to him for support. His thrust got harder and I was feeling that all to familiar feeling that I've missed.

Him.
Us consumed by one another.

"God, you feel so fucking good baby. He kissed my jaw, his one hand hooking around my waist piling into me deeper as his other hand caressed my face moving my wet curly hair out of the way and he just looked into my eyes. "I love you Yvette, every single part of you baby." He kissed me passionately and I moaned into his mouth more making me more over the edge. "I love you Shawn." I moaned my eyes closing as my high became near. Shawn need it and he began to pick up speed and I knew he wasn't far behind me, the way his thrust got sloppy and his moans where broken.

It didn't take us long before we're both a orgasmic mess.

•••

"How are you feeling babe?" He asked kissing my shoulder as he slid my robe off. I giggled at his small amount stubble grazed my bare skin, "Yes. How are you? Feeling better?" I grazed his cheek with my nose before kissing him.

He helped me slip into my satin nightie, his eyes never leaving my body, his bottom lip captured between his teeth."much better." He stood up towering over me like he always did, his bare chest visible and his sweats sitting low at his hip just right showing his v cut. My breath hitched when we were in such a closed proximity, I could smell his familiar scent and I missed it.

"Let's lay down babe, before the princess of the house decides to wake up." He kissed the top of my head with a smile.

"Can we just check her before we go to bed?" I asked heading towards the door, he nodded meeting with me as we walked to her room.

We both stepped in slowly and quietly, we got the edge of her crib and we watched her breathing and she looked so peaceful in her white onesie with baby elephants.

"She's beautiful." I whispered holding on to Shawn by the waist and leaning my head on his chest.

He rubbed my shoulders and pulled me into him.
"We did good baby. Let's go to bed."

We walked out the room, and back to ours we got into the bed and Shawn pulled me into his chest.
I laid my head on him and I let out a low sigh.

I missed this, the past couple weeks we had been so emotionally detached with everything being about Analyn, we just had that moment where we just were co parenting.

"I love you."

"I love you more. Let's rest." I quickly felt my eyes get heavy as Shawns hand laid on my side squeezing me into him.