Consumed: Always & Forever | Shawn Mendes |

23

Tonight's the last show of the festival run, and I'm feeling extremely nervous.

I peed about a thousand times, I've FaceTimed Yvette about twenty times in the last hour.

We just got off the phone and already I miss her soothing voice, she's the only person that can calm me down when I'm this nervous and jittery. It usually works but right now I just really wish she was here, with me.

These last two shows have been the toughest for me, only because I'm feeling so guilty about having put her through this for my own selfish childish reasons.

"Hey man, you good in there?" Mike asks me as he points one of his drum sticks in my direction with a raised eyebrow looking at me.

I laugh, "yeah man. All good."

"We've known each other long enough for me to know when you aren't in the right headspace. What's up bro?" He takes a seat across from me and he places the drumsticks down and gives me his attention.

I was so thankful that after all these years my team stood the same, even though now we all were damn near married with kids now, well I was the last one working on baby number one. But it was still like old times but not at the same time, they were all my family on and off the road of course.

"Man, I'm just feeling like shit right now. Yvette's home pregnant and getting bigger by the day it's getting harder for her to work but she's pushing through and as much as she says she understands I needed this, I can't help but feel like a crap husband. It fucking with my mind, hard." I hung my head low with my hands at each side of my head and just shaking.

"I get that man, trust me. But this, this is all temporary and this is our last show, and your home for the long haul brother. Yvette is strong and she got this trust me if she didn't you and everyone knows she's wouldn't have a problem letting you and anyone else know. That's why she's our favorite, she keeps you on your toes but in a good way. She gets it, a lot of woman wouldn't but she does and that's amazing, pregnant and all." Mike slapped my back making me laugh at his remarks, it was true Yvette was always very vocal about things she didn't or did agree with and she made sure I knew that first hand.

"Thanks brother."

"No worries, now let's get ready to kick ass one last time before you become a dad. Jesus that's weird to say still." Mike laughed as he stood up and we gave one another a bro hug before leaving my dressing room.

"I'll be right behind you, I'm a call Yvette one more time." I said stopping at the doorway and taking my phone out of my pocket quickly and calling her once more.

I just needed to hear her voice again.

"Alright man, we got 30 minutes." Mike said walking down the hall.

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