Consumed: Always & Forever | Shawn Mendes |

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"Well Yvette, everything is looking great. Your stitches seem to have healed beautifully. You seem to have dropped 3 pounds since giving birth and there are no concerns with breast feeding? Correct?" Dr. Nazarene spoke as her head came up from between my legs, she tapped my legs to allow me to drop down.

I sat up, brushing my clinic gown over my knee and adjusting in the hard chair.

"Yes, breast feeding is fine. I'm just trying to get used to the padding to prevent leakage." I laughed feeling on my right boob, it felt sore. Baby Ana was a hard sucker for sure.

Dr. Nazarene laughed as she turned to her clipboard and she began writing down things. She looked at me and she gave me a once over before asking the serious question.

"How are you doing Yvette? How's adjusting to motherhood?"

My smile quickly sprang out and I gushed about how happy I have truly felt, a little tired and some fatigue but happy nevertheless.

"That's great, that's good. But you do know it's okay to feel overwhelmed. This is both a new experience for you and dad. Babies are a lot of work and time and dedication." She spoke eyeing me intently looking for something anything.

"I know. So far it has been pretty okay. Analyn is a good sleeper, and feeder. She's not fussy, she is a poop machine as her dad puts it but overall it's smooth sailing so far." I laughed thinking of the first time Shawn changed her pamper and she quickly pooped all over herself up to her neck and Shawn just ran her to me naked asking me for help.

She gave me a smile as she began writing on her clipboard, she then pressed the pen and leaned over towards me.

"And how are you and dad? Adjusting to parenthood?"

My face grew hot, and I held my hands to my cheeks. Just thinking about Shawn made me hot and bothered.

"Everything's great. We seem actually better then we have in awhile."

She just nodded and smiled, "good, good." She closed her clipboard and she stood up.

"Well your all cleared to go, so I'll let you get dressed and be on your way." She smiled and stepped out of the room closing the door behind her.

•••

When I got home with Analyn, I was glad she was still sleeping in her stroller because I looked around the living room and it was a mess.

Baby bottles scattered on the coffee table, breast bump on the corner of the floor, a few scattered clothes of Shawn's and mines.

I set Analyn up in her bassinet in the living room, and I removed my clothing changing into shorts and a fleece hoodie and I began cleaning.

Shawn was at a meeting with Andrew in the city, he said he would be back by now. But I didn't stress it too much.

Cleaning was naturally always one of my forms of relaxation, I checked on Ana once more and saw she was sound asleep, moving her little hands and then a deep sigh, I couldn't couldn't help but smile lowly.

It was always so mind blowing looking at her, she was truly a blessing and I never thought I could love another human as much as I love her.

It was a different kind of love, a mother's love.
It made me feel this pang in my chest, I suddenly knew what my mother would say to me when I was younger and that made me quickly start to cry.

I miss her.

I felt his arms snake around me, unaware of him even coming in the house which made me instantly jump.

"What's wrong my love?" He kissed my soaked cheek.

I sniffled and turned and buried my face into his chest.

"I just miss her." I sobbed gripping the sides of his sweater and pulling closer into him as much as I could.

He let out a low, "I know baby." And he wrapped his arms around me tighter, kissing the top of my head.

The thing about Shawn, was no matter what it was he always showed the most empathy and compassion in every situation. And that was one of the many reasons why I fell for him, even after all these years.

"Your the best." I sobbed, kissing his chest.

He rubbed my back, "because of you." He kissed the tip of my nose, making me sniffle and giggle.

"Since the little girl is napping, want to have some tea with me? Tell me how your doctors visit was." He pulled us apart, grabbing my hand and walking us over to the kitchen.

He took a chair out for me to take a seat as he put water to boil. Then he went into the fridge taking out some snacks.

"So my beautiful wife, how was your day?" He asked, as he laid some cheese spread on the counter and some cut up fruits.

I got comfy in the chair, watching him like a love-stuck teenager, he still always had that effect on me.

"Excuse me, ma'am can you NOT look at me that." He teased, making me shake away all my dirty thoughts quickly being replaced with embarrassment.

I started laughing letting out a snort, "I'm sorry. Maybe stop looking so good." I shrugged my shoulders laughing some more.

He shook his head, trying to hold his laughter in.

His cheeks getting a rose like color, which made him more adorable.

I leaned over the table to grab some of the fruits, popping them in my mouth and winking at him.

His posture straighten as he got a glance of my shorts rising when I leaned over, exposing the undercut of my butt.

His eyes grew wide and a low throaty groan escaped the back of his throat.

"Yvette." His voice sounding deep for a second.

I smirked at him, acting oblivious to what I was doing. I repeated the action, putting a strawberry in my mouth and biting into it slowly, closing my eyes and letting out a slow low moan. "These are sooo good."

I could hear him take a sharp breath in and in a matter of sounds I felt him grab my wrist and practically drag me around the counter towards him.

"Come here." He demanded.

I sat on the counter directly in front of him now, my legs dangly off the island table as he went between me, grabbing my thighs hard and pulling me into his hard bulge.

"How was the visit?" He asked again, looking my body up and down and then at my lips hungrily.

"Everything's good." I said in a whisper, as his hands roamed all over my thighs and he kept squeezing them hard.

He smiled, "good baby."

His eyes met with mines, and our bodies seemed to radiate such heat off each other, it was thick and hot.

My hands slide up to his chest resting there as planted a small kiss of the opening of his shirt that left his chest exposed slightly.

My lips were soft on his bare chest, and I felt him shudder a bit at my touch, a small groan escaping his lips, his grip tighten some more on my thighs.

"Yvette.. - he began but I quickly put my finger to his lips indicating for him to be quiet, as I began to trail kisses up to his neck and sucking on his sweet spot. Yet another low deep groan came out of him, and I smiled in satisfaction.

Before anything could get anywhere, Analyn started to fuss right on time.

A groan came out of Shawn's mouth, making me stop and laughed at him a little. He rested his head over mines and he kissed me quickly. "To be continued,again." I held on to his chest as I slide off the counter, "the water is boiling baby." I smiled as I walked away to attend to our daughter.