Life of the Mockingjays (Sequel to Panem High)

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Katniss P.O.V

After the movie ended we all went to bed. I was so tired after yesterday's events that I fell straight asleep. It's crazy, hard to understand in my head. But then again what's not? And sometimes the though of living forever terrifies me. What will it be like 100 years from now. Or 200 years. It just scares me and sometimes I have days where I just can't face anybody or anything. I sigh and lay back on the bed. I close my eyes. Thinking about everything. Particularly my past. I was a mess. Well I had been a mess for 6 years of my life. I have endless amounts of scars all over my body. Some people don't even know about. A tear rolls down my cheek and I swallow the lump in my throat. All the memories are coming back. Flooding my mind and I don't know how to handle them. It's all very overwhelming. Some parts of my past were covered , other we're just lies and it's hard piecing together what's real and what's not. I groan in frustration and take a deep breath. I try and get to sleep again. Trying to escape my thoughts. But when you try to sleep it off they are brought in the worst form. Dreams.

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I wake up in my bed. Surrounded by everyone with tears screaming down my face. I look ahead of me and see one of the things that I killed. I start screaming as the arrow goes through it. "Katniss" Peeta says but I ignore him. I run downstairs still in tears and grab a knife. I carve a shape into my hand. It's as if I'm being taken over. I can't control this. I suddenly drop the knife and fall to the floor. My mouth moving but I can't hear what I'm saying. "KATNISS!" Peeta screams but it's no use. I can already feel myself loosing consciousness.

Peeta P.O.V

I lift her up onto the couch. "What did she do to her hand?" Clove asks. I take her hand and flip it over. "Anyone know what this means?" I ask and they all shake their heads. It's a circle with a cross in it. "Someone search it" I say and run and grab bandages and things to clean her hand with. I go back over to her and wipe the blood off. "That's strange" I say pointing to her palm. Instead of a cut its all black. Like a tattoo. "Uh Peeta take a look at this" clove says handing me her phone and I look at the web page. "It says here that it stands for the four elements of earth. Fire, water , Air and Earth" I say and they all look at us confused. "Why did she draw it?" Johanna asks and I shrug. "I don't know" I say feeling her temperature. She's extremely hot. "She got a fever" I say and they nod. "Get her back to bed" clove says and I pick her up , carrying her upstairs. I tuck her in and kiss her forehead and when I'm about to leave she sits up, gasping for air. I rush to her side and she turns to me. Her eyes a vibrant blue colour. I pull her into my chest and she clings onto me. "You okay?" I ask and she nods slowly. "Katniss what happened?" I ask laying back in the bed. She starts shaking and I pull the covers over them. "It was a flashback. It was really bad" she says scared. "Look at me" I say but she doesn't. "Katniss look at me" I say and she looks up. "I can't take all your painful memories away but I can help you through them. Just let me help you" I say and she nods. "I don't know what came over me" she says. "Okay just next time try fight it" I say and she nods slightly. "Thanks for understanding" she says smiling. "Hey , sometimes things happen to people and they are not equipped to deal with them" I tell her and kiss her cheek. "Now why don't we go and see Effie and Haymitch. See if they can help us?" I ask and she nods. "Okay let's get you ready" I say smiling at her. She nods and stands up. "I'm going for a quick shower" she says walking into the bathroom. I smile slightly and lay back in the bed. I hope she's alright.

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I am waiting for her to come out when I hear a thud. "Katniss?" I call and she groans in response. "Katniss are you okay?" I shout through. "Come help me" she says and I open the door and see her on the floor with a towel covering her. "What happened?" I ask. "I slipped" she says. "Hurt my arm" she complains. "Let me see" I say and use my healing powers to fix it. "Thank you" she says standing up. I smile and stand behind her and she looks in the mirror. I brush her hair for her and she smiles. I dry it for her and when I'm done she turns around. "Thank you" she says smiling and kissing my cheek. I smile and we both walk out. "You get dressed" I say and she nods while walking into the wardrobe. She quickly gets changed and comes back out. "Can you do something to my hair?" She asks and I grin. "Sit down" I say and she sits in front of me. I do the French braid that she wears sometimes and tie it at the end. "I can't believe you still remember how to do that" she says looking up at me and I kiss her. She smiles into it and I pull away. "You thought me how" I say smiling. "Yeah when we were at the beach" she says laughing at the memory and I nod. "Let's go. I think we need some answers" I say and she nods before we both walk out. "we're going to see Haymitch and Effie to see if they know anything" I say and we walk out. We drive towards district 12 to their house and Katniss holds onto my arm the full way there. She's scared incase it means something bad.