Unshed Tears

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Maaga akong nagising kinabukasan. Mabuti nalang at mas naunang nagising sakin si Del Fuego. Gosh, I can't stop myself from blushing. I can clearly remember how his big hands covered my small waist last night. Parang tumindig ang balahibo ko ng maramdaman ko ang mainit nyang hininga sa leeg ko kagabi. Damn, I feel I'm gonna hyperventilate the whole morning! Nag-ayos muna ako bago lumabas dahil kahiya naman sa perpekto nyang mukha. Ng matapos ako sa aking sarili ay lumabas agad ako ng tent. Naabutan kong nakahanda na ang pagkain namin sa maliit na mesa. Sandwich at juice lang ang nandoon dahil hirapan ang magluto dito sa bundok. Iginala ko ang mata upang hanapin si Drei.
I saw him standing nearby, may katawagan sya at hindi ko alam kung sino. I didn't mind it though. I started eating the breakfast he prepared. Hindi ko pa alam kung saan kami pupunta after the hiking. I'm gonna ask him later.

Naubos ko na ang pagkain  ko but he's still not done talking to whoever that person he's calling! Mukhang seryosong seryoso pa sya habang kausap ang katawagan nya. Who could that be? Hindi ko marinig ang pinag-uusapan nila dahil medyo malayo sya sa gawi ko. Hmm, he's making sure I wouldn't hear a thing huh? Baka isa yan sa mga babae nya. A little thought of that hurts me. I don't know why I keep myself being attached to someone kahit na may trust issues ako, seriously. It's just my principle in life not to be close to anyone cause I knew that when time comes, those people I loved will eventually go on with their lives without me. Somehow, I trust Andrea, Margaux and my cousin, Nix but I can't stop myself from doubting that someday, maiiwan na naman akong mag-isa. They can't blame me for thinking like that coz all my life, I lived alone na ang sarili ko lang ang aking karamay.

" Are you done? Mamaya bababa na tayo, we're going to Iloilo," narinig ko ang baritono nyang boses mula sa aking likod. Hindi ko namalayang nandito na pala sya.

Itinaas ko ang tingin sa kanya. Nakapamaywang sya at kunot-noong nakatingin sakin. Agad ko namang iniwas ang tingin bago sya tinanong.

" Anong gagawin natin sa Iloilo?"

His jaw clenched, parang ayaw pa nyang sagutin ang tanong ko. tss

" Ipapakilala kita sa parents ko."
Muntik na akong mabuwal sa narinig ko mula sa kanya. Fvck? Ipapakilala?! Why would he do that?

" Bakit? Why would you introduce me to your parents? And as far as I know, taga Tagaytay kayo, so pano napunta sa Iloilo?" I can't refrain myself from asking.

"I want to have a deal with you," he restrained. " I'm going to tell you everything about my life, in return, you need to help me." aniya

"And what kind of deal is that? to be your fvck buddy? your secret mistress?!" I burst out, his jaw formed into a grim line, na para bang may hindi sya nagustuhan sa sinabe ko.

" Watch your mouth, lady." banta nya na nagpamaang sa akin. " I never wanted this but I think it's the best choice. Damn, you know nothing about me, " aniya sa malamig na boses. Hindi ko na napigilan ang aking sarili. Tumayo ako at sinikap na magka level kami but he's too tall for me to reach him.

"Alam ko! I knew that your girlfriend cheated on you! She ended up being pregnant! You told her you're ready to take the responsibility regardless of you not being the father. You see, Del Fuego, I knew it from the start," mapanuya kong sabi.

Dahan dahang nagdilim ang paningin nya. He was so angry! Nag-uumapaw na kaba ang aking naramdaman. Darn Angeliana, why the hell did you say that?!

" How did you fvcking know?! Did Andrea tell you?! " halos mabingi ako sa kanyang sigaw. I never seen him this angry before, ngayon lang. And apparently, I'm the reason of his sudden burst out.

Buong tapang parin akong humarap sa kanya despite the nervousness I'm feeling.

" Yes! She did tell me, so ano naman ngayon? At bakit ka ba nagagalit huh? Do you think pagtatawanan kita just because of that? Iniisip mo pa rin ang pride at ego mo? Damn Del Fuego! Wake up! Hindi mo kasalanan yun! It's not you, hindi ikaw ang nagkulang, sya yun! " hindi ko mapigilan ang mapasigaw. Nanatili parin ang kanyang ekspresyon, para syang isang Leon na handang kainin ang bihag nya!