Well, I'm alright. What I did yesterday was dumb and I'm sorry. I can't start trying to kill myself again I need to focus on the good. Let's see well I don't have work today so I guess I can just play Red Dead all day. Okay, that's one uh... Well, my uncle will be on later so I can play with him. Hell if I want to I can stay high all a day. I know I can see about hitting someone up on one scene I never really gave dating my all but maybe I should. "Yeah I can do this", I tell myself. Well if I can keep from having a panic attack all day that would just ruin my gaming. I'll just take some of my Atarax and give this day my all I just need to keep going. I might cut but not obsessively only if I must. My razor is still bloody from last time, "let's try not to think about that". Okay, I-I got this, today will be okay because I'm in control. I just have to stay happy. I know if I need to talk I can always ask my friends. I close my eyes to gather my thoughts once more and calm my mind of any anxiety. "You got these deep breaths," I tell myself. I inhale some to help rid myself of any other negative thoughts. "Let this be a start to a great day".
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All in my head?
No FicciónWhy fight this pain, when everyday it only becomes easier to go? This is sort of a diary it will become more of a story as the chapters continue. May have mentions of suicide. Might have graphic images, if that bothers you don't read this, check out...
