If any of you out there cut themselves please stop before its too late. I personally am at the point where i don't feel like i can stop. I get a similar feeling to being off Ritalin, i get really aggressive, especially if someone gets in my way. So why did i start cutting well this past year has just fucking sucked I've been depressed like never before. On top of that, the anxitey is just horrific. so start using my folding knife making little slits on the back of my wrist. It hurt like hell, well at first but the pain gave me something to focus on. It helped me block out the anxiety. Now I've moved on the front of my wrist and even use a straight edge razor.
Why is cutting so addictive well when you cut the body releases endorphins into the bloodstream. Which help block out both emotional and physical pain. It's only a temporary fix, but an addictive one. Before i got this razor I'd use glass and rusty nails. anything i could use to pierce the skin. Now i can't stop.
please if you think about cutting, please Text CONNECT to 741741. that will get you to a crisis text line. Don't let yourself get hooked on it.
Every few chapters i'll make a chapter like this about crisis lines and other tools you guys can use if your feeling depressed. The next chapter will be out sometime this week.
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All in my head?
Non-FictionWhy fight this pain, when everyday it only becomes easier to go? This is sort of a diary it will become more of a story as the chapters continue. May have mentions of suicide. Might have graphic images, if that bothers you don't read this, check out...
