Spider-Man one shots

Rant

Avoid reading I just needed to rant about things. Seriously you can live life without seeing this trust me.

Anyone else get annoyed when you are really excited about something but get shut down every time you try talking about it?

Like I seriously am at the point where I hate my family and just learned to shut up about what makes me excited. I try showing them the FFH trailer and tell them about how excited I am about a specific thing. For example the multi verse and all that but they just start talking to each other and like completely ignore me. I hate how I want to show them the trailers as I'm glowing with excitement but they shut me up saying oh I already seen that. Or I feel like they judge me because I love Marvel so much. (Reasons on why I have so many A/N's because I can actually talk about the ideas and things I enjoy on here) Like it gets so annoying and I'm to the point where I'm mad. I can't tell anyone about the things I love before getting made fun of (my friends) or getting shut down (family) No one in my life knows that I even have Wattpad and about the stories I create which bring in many views (which I'm really grateful for it makes me so happy seeing all the comments and things) They don't pay attention to my existence and instead care about my siblings more than me. I always hate hearing "you are going to be famous one day." Said to my siblings because they do sports while I'm over here doing nothing. And I try to tell my parent I want to do acting. I really really want to be an actress but they don't do one single thing about it. Sure I guess you can call it jealousy. I'm jealous that my siblings get everything while I'm just here being forgotten about.

My family wonders what I'm doing on my phone all the time. They think I'm playing video games and gushing over fellow students Instagrams but no. I'm always on Wattpad because there are stories where I can escape reality. I wish Marvel was real. Super hero's. I'm so stupid though because I'm a teenager who wishes such things to exist. I should be like my siblings the normal teenagers who are laughing all the time with the many friends they have. Who dress with the latest trends. But no I'm not like them and I wish I was because I hate that I'm the one weird kid.

I hate that I dress in clothes that aren't trendy because I don't like tight things. I hate that I don't like my life. That I have so many fake friends but I'm just trying to finish school without getting into drama. I hate the "friends" that I have who always hit me everyday and pull my hair or call me ugly or post online/talk about me behind my back. Yes I should get rid of them but I'm again trying to finish school and then next year I'll move schools to start over. I hate that I'm ugly. Everyday being called ugly isn't the best of things. I miss the days when I was younger and smiled all the time and knew I was beautiful but now all I see is an ugly fucking face. I hate everything. I hate how white I look. I hate my hair. I hate what I love because it's not normal. I just completely hate everything.

Honestly I'm so done. And yeah it's not a big deal and I shouldn't even post this because there are people out in the world who have a worse life and it's not even huge what I'm upset about. But I dunno I just needed to get this pointless thing off my chest.