Living With The Psychopath (GL) [Completed] [Self-Published]

Episode 18

Episode 18:

"It's been a long time, fam." Rosendale whispered in a very humorous way, although I can't relate myself with it. Ipinatong niya ang mga bulaklak sa apat na tomb dito sa loob ng malaking mausoleum. A large tomb for her family─the Ibañez's. "Been a long time."

When I asked her where she wanted to go, she answered cemetery with a grin. Doon pa lang, alam ko na ang pakay namin. I was starting to believe that she's not the one who murdered her family. Not unless she's a real psycho still visiting dead people she killed para lang magluksa kahit siya ang may kasalanan. I didn't know a lot about psychos or anything related with the illness, I was no psychology major, I only know the basics. I tried researching but I guess what I can find online was not sufficient for me to understand enough.

I was trying to observe her, see if there were any symptoms that I can relate with psychopathy. I found out that there's also this thing that called sociopath which is an antisocial personality disorder, just like the psychopath. They display almost similar symptoms so the terms are often being used interchangeably. I found out that sociopath was less severe than psychopath, if so, paano kung ganoon siya?

Psychopaths were unable to feel emotional attachment and real empathy, but they can form long term relationships, mimicking emotions, learning it even if they can't really feel it. If that's the case, then I will cross out the possibility of Rosendale liking me. But still, I have read that they were capable of feeling something even at the very least percentage. That's the opposite for sociopaths, they have the capability to feel emotions despite the difficulty to establish long relationships.

Looking at her, I can't see her as a psychopath nor a sociopath. All I can see was a broken girl, deprived of love from her family. Siguro, pwedeng sociopath but she's not that really violent, o baka naman hindi niya lang pinakikita? She's violent with herself anyway.

But if she's innocent, why she's here? Why she's not telling anything? Who killed these people she cherished the most? I glanced at her, Rosendale was staring intently at every tombs, caressing the surface like she's caressing living people. It's like she can still see them. It's a lonely sight.

I will consider myself lucky for having my parents around, for making time just to be with me despite the working schedules. Rosendale, on the other hand, has all her time but there's no one to be spend it for. Maybe that's the reason she's sticking with me.

I don't think she needed me romantically. Sa tingin ko, kailangan niya lang talaga ng pamilya. I still refused the idea of her confession, that she liked me. Should I just stop the once a week kiss deal? Para hindi na siya ma-confuse pa.

But doing that might make her more suicidal than she was already. Pero wala namang mawawala kung susubukan ko. It's not like she's been kissing me all her life. Tutulungan ko naman siyang maghanap ng bagong form of sublimation.

"Echo."

Napabalik ako sa reyalidad matapos marinig ang boses niya. She tapped the floor, motioning me to sit beside her. Bumuntong-hininga ako at sumunod na lang, I didn't want to do anything that will put her off. It's her birthday anyway. I sat beside her, indian sit.

She wiped her eyes. Halatang nagpipigil lang siya sa pag-iyak, nagpupunas agad para walang bumagsak na luha. "You may not remember this but I was clumsy kid way back. I told you before you reminded me of my mom. Madalas siya ang naglilinis ng sugat ko."

"Binubuhusan ka rin niya ng alcohol?" It was an innocent question but I caught her rolling her eyes.

"Of course not." she snickered, "You're way more violent."

"Nagsalita."

"We stay at home every Sunday, they don't work ng ganoong araw. If we're not at home, we usually go out for a bond. Close si Ate Shen and Nathan, they're always together. Siguro kasi, bunso, favorite. I'm the middle child and it's okay. I get to observe them all, seeing how happy they were."