Beautiful, Dirty, Rich (Monsta X Fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty: Philosophy

'Wonho doesn't know what he's talking about,' I told myself, 'He's just... messing with me.'

I ran out of the school building, trying to find Shownu as quickly as possible.

'I'm not a gold digger...'

I know I'm not a gold digger. I know that my feelings for Shownu are genuine and true. I stopped running when I was outside of the school building. For a moment, I had to stop and catch my breath. 

'But... what if?'

"Yuri!"

Shownu was waving me over. He had my cellphone in one hand, a look of confusion on his face.

"Shownu..." I sighed, glad he was still waiting for me.

"Jackson just came by and handed this to me," Shownu muttered, sticking my phone out to me, "I don't know why."

"Thank you," I took the phone back, "Sorry I took so long."

"It's okay," he replied. He watched me as I attempted to compose myself, "Is everything alright?"

I glanced back at the school building. The window for the student council office caught my attention. Wonho sat in the windowsill, staring down at us.

He waved, and I looked away.

"I'm fine, let's just go."

Shownu slung an arm over my shoulder and we started walking away together. I felt much better when he was by my side. All of the stress put on me by Wonho melted away.

'See? My feelings are real.'

But why did I need to convince myself of that? Why was I letting Wonho's words affect me?

I refused to doubt myself like this.

"Shownu," I breathed, catching his attention. Shownu turned his head to me, brow raised.

"Yeah?" He asked.

"I..." I paused for a moment before continuing, "If you had to lose everything, all of your money and power, for me.... would you?"

"Everything?" He asked.

I nodded, waiting for his answer.

Shownu looked to the sky in thought before answering, "Well, I don't need money. And I don't need power either. I just need you."

I let out a sigh of relief, Shownu pat my head.

"Why?" He asked, a light chuckle on his breath.

Obviously my question was childish and ridiculous. Shownu would never actually have to do that. But I just needed to make myself feel better.

"No reason," I lied, shrugging.

He stopped, turning to me "Alright then. Your turn. What about you?"

"Huh?" I asked.

"What if you had to lose money and power to be with me?" Shownu asked, "Would you give it up?"

"Of course!" I replied, laughing to myself.

I don't have much to lose, anyway. I would easily give up everything to stay with Shownu forever.

 Wonho's words haunted my dreams, and I was unable to sleep. So gave up, rolling out of bed to get ready early. I trudged to my door to get a drink of coffee, opening it slowly so as not to wake my parents.