"I'm not sure if I can love you anymore."
The words triggered tears that began to flow down his cheeks. He sniffed and looked up at me, and he smiled.
"Its okay." He smiled sadly. I could see the sadness in his eyes. They no longer had the glint of happiness I saw months ago. "I know I'm a douchebag."
"No." I said softly and put my hand over his. "Maybe we just weren't... you know... right..." I trailed off. God this was getting too cheesy and cliché.
He sighed before standing up and brushing off the pizza crumbs from his pants. He straightened his jacket and wiped his eyes. He was walking to the door and turned back to me. "At least make up with Jessica. I don't want you losing her because of me." He smiled and shut the door.
I walked over to the door quietly and saw him walking towards the sidewalk. He wipes his eyes with his sleeve and disappeared from my sight.
I cleaned up what was left of the party and proceeded upstairs. My parents were now asleep so I went in the shower. I stayed in there for about 15 minutes, just thinking of what could've been. I banged on the walls and sank to the floor of the shower, water still falling on my head. I pulled my knees into my chest and cried.
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"Well there was this one time when we all gathered in the gym and prayed for you, and Monica created a scene by crying when it was over." Beth scoffed. "Drama queen."
Since classes had been suspended today due to road renovations, Beth invited me to come over to her house. It took a lot to convince my parents since they're more protective of me now, but eventually, they let me go. For the past half hour, Beth has been telling me about what I missed.
"Said stuff about you guys being really close in your childhood. And the party prank thing was just a joke."
"Did anyone believe her?" I laughed.
"Not really. The social ladder rearranged after that party you know. Connor and his friends asked us to sit with them, and Lily has been talking to us way more than usual. We're kind of close now." She said.
"Wow. And what happened to Monica's possy?" I asked curiously. I still remembered how her and Thomas joined forces and embarrassed me at the party.
"Well, most of her friends realized she was a bitch and left her, but she still eats with some people I guess. And Connor's friends actually confronted Thomas about his attitude towards girls. It was pretty epic." Beth chuckled.
"You like him don't you?" I smiled to Beth. She was taken aback by my sudden observation, and gave me the 'how do you know' face. "It's your eyes. They somehow become brighter and gleam when you talk about him." I winked.
"I'm not entirely sure. I've never actually crushed on anyone before, just celebrities." She smiled. The doorbell rang and Beth went to get it as I sat on the couch and looked through my twitter feed. I had gained over 200 new followers on twitter.
"Er.. Hi." I heard someone say. My head shot up and I saw Jessica standing beside Beth.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, my tone sounding meaner and colder than I intended.
"Well, I came by your house and your mom said you came here so-"
"Why are you here." I said cutting her off, my voice sounding serious.
"I just want to talk Blair please." She said. "Just let me explain." She looked at me for a while, her eyes silently pleading. I looked over to Beth, who nodded slightly. "Okay." I replied and both of them sat down.
"I was drunk okay? I was a drunk emotional teenage girl with a party full of people. Never a good sign. After I saw Dylan flirting with you, it was like he forgot all about me, and I was standing right there!"
"He didn't know it was me!" I argued but Beth glared at me and told Jessica to continue.
"He asked me if I wanted to dance, but I quickly denied and went into the kitchen for a drink. Instead of getting a coca-cola, I accidentally reached for one of the alcoholic cups and drank it. I hated the taste but I started drinking more and more until eventually, I was intoxicated. Carter came and, well, things just happened." She shrugged becoming quiet.
I couldn't speak. I was debating against myself whether or not I should forgive her or not.
"Okay but what about the phone call in the car?" I crossed my arms. "You were pretty possessive over Carter huh?"
"You called me a rat." She snapped.
"You made out with my boyfriend!" I shot back.
"He wasn't your boyfriend!" She yelled.
"There you go again!" I yelled louder. "You're always pointing it out! You don't think I know that? He was supposed to be! But thanks to you none of that will ever happen!"
"Well do you-"
"Shut up! The both of you." Beth said sternly. Her voice wasn't loud, but it was solid and serious, and enough to intimidate Jessica and I. Beth was never the type to get mad, so when she does, well we're all screwed. She turned to face me. "What do you mean it won't happen anymore?"
I told them. I told them everything that happened last night. I told them how much I regretted it and how much I wanted to take it back. Tears began to fill my eyes but I blinked them back before anyone could notice.
"Then why don't you tell him? He still has feelings for you anyway." Jessica piped up.
"I can't." I mumbled.
"Why not? Blair you have everything! You have a rich family, who loves you for you, and a boy who would jump in front of a car for you! Why can't you just tell him?" Jessica yelled.
"Because I'm scared!" I yelled louder. The room got quiet once again and both kept their eyes on me.
"I'm scared I'll mess up again. I'm scared he'll find someone more interesting and more beautiful and eventually get sick and tired of me and leave." I stared at my feet. "I just... I don't want to get hurt anymore." Tears began to fill my eyes, but I blinked them away.
Beth sat beside me and hugged me tightly. "You're beautiful okay? You're this funny and smart girl who anyone would be lucky to have. I know I am." She smiled.
"If it helps..." Jessica said suddenly. "I'm really sorry for everything. I know I screwed up and I'm sorry. For everything." She repeated and I let out a soft chuckle.
"Its okay. Im sorry too." I say as she sits beside me and hugs both of us. The threw of us just sat there hugging each other like it was the last time we would ever see each other.
But it wasn't, because I knew, that these two friends, hugging me at this very moment, were going to be with me for a long, long time.
And I smiled at the thought.
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A Blooming Beauty
Teen Fictionall her life, Blair Thompson, the Four-eyed, brain freak beaver girl was stereotyped and judged as a Nerdy freak due to her appearance. But everyone was so busy judging her on the outside, they couldn't see what she really was on the inside. She ent...
