"What the fuck are you doing here?" A girl opened the door with the worst attitude, but I couldn't blame her because she was Arabella, the mother of my child who I had ran away from "oh my god" I was shocked that I had finally seen her, I just couldn't believe & I couldn't tell she couldn't ether "look is was all by accident but I am glad this happened, Can I come inside?" I spoke very fast for some reason "no, you could sit your ass outside in the cold weather." she was mad at me but like I said you can't blame her
"can I just talk to you?"
"Oh, so now you wanna talk?"
"I'm sorry"
"Why don't you run off to the bar?"
"Because I wanna be here"
"Oh, shut your lying ass up!"
"Lemme talk to you, please!"
"5 seconds!"
"I don't know where to start-"
"4"
"Stop counting"
"3"
"Oh my god"
"2"
"Arabella!"
"What?"
"Just listen okay, I am sorry I know I fucked up, shit I left all alone but I didn't even know you were pregnant! But that's not what's matters because I should've been safe. Only reason I ran off was because I couldn't even process that information correctly. Why couldn't you tell me before? Whatever but if you don't want me in you'r life then I won't be! But I am gonna be in my kid's life!"
"Fine. Jay!" she called out, & I kinda freaked because I wasn't ready for this, to finally met my son, I got hella nervous "yeah, mum" he had an adorable voice but because the door was cracked I couldn't see him yet "your dad, came back!" I heard her smile which mended my heart "my dad?" I heard his confusion which broke my heart "yeah, would you like to talk to him?" she asked Jay "no" he almost whispered "why not?" she left the door cracked as she walked off somewhere "cause I don't have a dad, he's never been here." He had an attitude just like his mom "oh but he is now, just give it a try." she encouraged him "but I don't wanna do it unless you gimme something?" he was lazy like me though "okay, man!" she said & opened the door, "come in, I'm not gonna have my son outside in the cold!" she said rudely but like I've been saying you couldn't blame her, Jay hid behind Arabella's legs (he was shy & I was shy) I could really see him though, I couldn't see nothing of him as a a matter of fact "I'm go upstairs getting you a surprise while you talk to your daddy." she left him in the living room with me. We just stared at each other, he had soft curly hair that sat on top of his head covering his eyes, he looked everything like Arabella but those eyes yup he had my eyes.
"Hi"
"Mommy?"
"No it's fine"
"Well than who are you, because mom says not to talk to strangers...."
"I'm Saul"
"Saul is an ugly name"
"Well then what would you like my name to be then?"
"Something cool!"
"How about slash?"
"Oh yeah now that's cool!"
"Thanks, so what's your name?"
"Jay, I like my name so don't try changing it!"
"Okay okay, so Jay how old are you?"
"4"
"Preschool, right?"
"Well yeah"
"You like it?"
"Yeah!"
"Why?"
"They have a big dinosaur, that's why!"
"So you like dinosaurs?"
"Yes, do you?"
"Mhhmm but my collection is over at my mom's house."
"Oh but your collection probably sucks, because I have the best one!"
"Haha, no I do!"
"Wanna fight till the death?"
"No, I hurt my hand..."
"How?"
"Playing guitar."
"Wow, you play guitar!?!?"
"Yep"
"But How?"
"Because I broke the string."
"So you suck then."
"I don't suck!"
"Yeah, you do, dude!"
"I am one of the best, okay?"
"So your famous?"
"Very"
"I wanna be famous!"
"Oh"
"Yeah"
"Well what do you like to do?"
"Nothing much, can you read me a story because I'm tired & mom tells me stories every night?"
"Sure thing!" I read him a story & he was out like a light, I was tired too & closed my eyes for just a minute.
