Under the surface

Part 31

part 31:
'like part 30 the letter's going to be on this font, enjoy xx'

jack's p.o.v:
'so mikey.. you have no idea how hard it is for me to write it, I really hoped that I'll never have to write it but lately.. ugh lately things started to get worse, and worse.

so here i am, writing and crying..
i wish things will get better and you'll never see this letter but both of us know that it  won't happen, we both know that eventually, I'll crush under the waves of life..

okay okay back to the letter, mikey, i want you to know that you have always been like a big brother to me, the big brother i never had.
I wish you a great life with shaili, you two are so adorable together it's like you were meant to be! I bet you are going to have beautiful children with amazing blue eyes, black dark hair and with a beautiful, charming smile like yours.
I can already imagine it!!
I'll probably just imagine it forever and never be able to actually see them.. or your wedding.. ugh now I'm crying again..

mikey, you have always been my brother, my shoulder, the one to hear me crying in the middle at the night and hugging me until I stop shaking.

I love you so so much, and it's so hard for me.. I don't want to leave you but'
my voice broke and I started crying but I continued reading with my voice shaking..

'I don't want to leave you but i afraid I have to...
i love, I love you when I live and I'll love you when I'm dead.. and don't worry, I'll tell the angels up there how amazing you and shaili are and I'll tell them to give a good, happy life.

okay, bye for now, I really need to stop writing because I'm crying too hard to concentrate on anything.

peace out, emma'

I put the letter down and looked up to mikey, he was a crying mess.
Shaili tried to comfort him but it didn't work really well because she was crying too.
I went to them and gave them a tight hug "it will be okay" I said, I didn't believe in the words I said at all but they believed it so that's okay..

I went back to where I was sitting and said quietly "okay brook, that one's for you.."
i was about starting reading it when andy started shouting out of nowhere.
"andy what happened?" rye asked his boyfriend when he noticed he was shaking. andy was having a panic attack, something must have happened.

a/n
okay so I'm literally updating at school😂😂
ugh it was so hard to write this part, I almost cried.

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love, odelia💙💙