our living heart. (Completed)

Chapter 12

Everything is so unfair! Why is it so unfair? God give me love and he took it away from me each time! In the worst possible way! Just why am I meant to be this miserable!

Taehyung sobbed his heart out, clutching the framed picture of their wedding in his arms.

"No! Hyungie! Why did you leave me!" He cried.

"I'm just a weak boy without you! How am I supposed to go on!" He cried.

His emotions has been on different places.

Sometimes he is sad, sometimes he laugh with tears in his eyes when he look at some pictures of their past and sometimes he is angry, at God and Seojoon. And other times, he plain right hate himself for being alive.

"You're so cruel hyungie! Why would you leave me on this earth alone!" He cried and threw the framed picture across the wall resulting in the glasses scattering on the floor of their bedroom.

He then walked towards their table and flipped it off and threw everything he could see on the floor and sobbed harshly. And sit down beside the scattered glasses and take them in his fist. He want to hurt himself physically so that he could think less about his miserable life.

The bedroom door opened and Hyungsik rushed in and took the crying brunette in his arms. Caging him in his arms. "Shhh.. Taetae.. you promised me you'd stop this." Hyungsik pleaded.

Its been two months since Seojoon's funeral and Taehyung has been miserable ever since.

Hyungsik temporarily moved in to the Park's residence to make sure Taehyung is not hurting himself.
But the younger is not even able to go to work and he can't even eat. He had visibly lost a large amount of weight and his skin's gets paler day by day.

"I know you're hurt but Seojoon won't forgive you if you hurt yourself." Hyungsik said, while tending to the bleeding wounds on his palm.

"I just.. I just don't understand it! Why did God have to take him away from me! He's all I have!" Taehyung cried.

Hyungsik hold back his tears to stay strong for the one who lost his husband.

"I know Taehyung. I know. But you still got me. Okay? I'm not only Seojoon's best friend. I am also your hyung. Okay? Don't feel like you're alone. No one will ever take Seojoon's place in our lives but we have to move on and let him rest in peace. Alright?"

Taehyung nodded his head but sobbed again.

Hyungsik thought its only fair to allow Taehyung to mourn for his husband who has been his pillar ever since they met. It's kinda fair to feel miserable after losing half off your shoulder.

"Jeongguk. You can't skip anymore practice. I know you're valuable to the team but this is disrespectful. Your one month break is long over. You need to get your ass over here! Or you'll be benched for the rest of your contract!" It was the Team manager who shouted at him through his voicemail.

"That fucktard! I'm going to get him fired! Don't worry Jeongguk. You're fine! Everyone understands." Seokjin said but Jeongguk mindlessly nodded his head.

Nothing really phased him anymore but he just don't feel like playing basketball anymore. It was the one who made him lose Taehyung and he don't think he will ever be able to touch a ball without being reminded of the most valuable person he lost.

"Its okay hyung. How's Jeonsoo?" He asked the elder who was sitting in front of him.

"He miss you. But he understands. As much as a four year old can." Seokjin answered.

Jeonsoo was currently living with his grandparents while Jeongguk went to their farm house in Jeju.

"Does he still ask for him?" Jeongguk asked, talking about Taehyung.

Seokjin let out a deep sigh.

"Yeah. Everyday."

Jeongguk then gulped and hesitantly asked if Seokjin knew how Taehyung is doing.

"I don't know. He's taking leaves from work and he was so miserable at the funeral. He couldn't even stand."

Jeongguk heart hurts for Taehyung. He knows how much Taehyung loves Seojoon and when Taehyung loves, he loves strongly and loudly because he had once been the one to receive the unconditional love and he can't imagine what he's going through right now.

"I just want him to be happy." He said.

Seokjin chuckled while looking at the younger with sympathy.

"I know Jeongguk. I know."