Through Chrissie's eyes

A big step

While my vacations were full of concerts and dates, when our classes came back Brian and I focused more on our studies. We had almost the same level of concern for college, so we understood each other very well when we were busy studying. Brian had finished math and physics courses and this year he would start Astrophysics as he wanted. I was so proud of him! Already I would face my last year of course, and God willing, next year, instead of attending so many classes I would be teaching.

So when classes returned, it was even harder for us to see each other. Of course I was still going to shows, but I started to let go of some, especially on the days when I was tired or busy the next day.

I really missed him on nights like that. That's why I called the next day when I couldn't go to the shows. At least we had the weekends. At one of the boys' shows at Imperial College, instead of going out with Jo, Roger and Tim, Brian preferred to go out with me alone, walking hand in hand on campus.

"That's different," I said. "We always go out together, not that I'm complaining."

"I know, I just needed to talk to you alone." Brian turned to me. "It's something I was thinking ..."

"What? Did something serious happen?" I got worried.

"It's not serious," he assured me, calming me, "but it's serious, and your opinion is very important, I mean, what you decide will be what I'm going to do."

"Brian, what are you going to do?" He was afraid of my reaction.

"You know that we barely have seen each other and, I miss you, and I think you feel the same, what I'm trying to say is that I already have an apartment, it's rented, it's not much else .. "he hesitated," how do you feel about us living together? "

"You and me?" I was shocked at first "we living together?"

"You don't have to accept Chrissie, only if you want, it would be a solution for the distance, and I'm willing to do that ..." he discouraged.

How Bri was silly at times! I agreed on most things with him.

"You just took me by surprise," I said. "It's a big responsibility, it's like we're practically married."

"We don't have to get married now, I mean, we can wait a little further, for the time being we can only support both of us and a little apartment." He brightened a little.

"And I have plenty of experience living with Jo ..." I paused to think, analyzing all the possibilities and pros and cons.

Convinced that they were much more pros. I know we would get along well, since we had almost the same thoughts and the same goals.

"So?" Bri watched me for a while, knowing I was thinking about what he had proposed.

"If I can live with Jo, it won't be difficult to live with you," I teased and smiled.

"Oh, thank you, thank you." Brian covered my face with kisses. "It'll work, you'll see."

"Of course it will!" I assured him.

We then went to meet our friends with the news. They ended up approving us and giving us the greatest support. Somehow, we influenced Jo and Roger to make the same decision. Both I and Brian had our doubts about them living together, but nothing could stop their determination.

We took the next weekend for the change. I knew Brian's apartment from the times I had go there and knowing the space very well, I knew where I would put my things. And I didn't even have that many things, maybe what would help fill the apartment would be my books, along with Brian's, not counting our college books. So what made me more tired of the change was loading the books. I split the wardrobe space and put my clothes there, Brian rearranged the books on the living room shelf to make room for mine.
That was the last thing we fixed. At the end of the day I fell on the couch without ceremony, already feeling at home. Brian sat down next to me, and I laid my head on his lap. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. It was incredible how happy I was at that moment. When I opened my eyes again, I saw the sound equipment in a corner and the Red Special gently kept nearby. The perfect image of my home.

I looked up and saw Brian staring at me, his gaze glittering, his hair falling, his smile, the most beautiful, my favorite ...

"I love you ..." he said softly.

I started to laugh, which made Brian half alert, but he didn't take the smile off his face.

"It's the first time you tell me this," I had to say.

"The first of many," Bri assured me.

"I love you too," I said, "that's ...

"That's what?" he asked me, admiring me with his eyes.

"I never thought I would live for a moment like this," I said honestly, "sometimes I thought that ... when I felt alone, someone else, anywhere in the world, who felt alone too, would find me and I would find him, and we would complete each other. I had doubts if I would find this person, but now I don't have anymore."

"You found me and I found you," Brian said in an excited voice.

We stood there in silence letting the emotions fill the moment. It was all real.

It didn't take long for us to adapt to our new routine, at first it was strange to have to go to the university every day, since I no longer had my dorm, but I got used to the extra bus trip.

In the midst of studies and shows, another novelty has shaken our lives. NASA in the United States prepared the Apollo 11 mission, and that had excited Brian in a way I had never seen before. On the day the landing was to be transmitted, even our faculties dismissed us to see the transmission. So we agreed to meet in Jo and Roger's apartment. It was as tight as ours, but we were already accustomed to the lack of space. We approached the TV, attentive to everything, even with me and Brian being more excited than Roger and Jo.

"Will this thing be long?" complained the drummer.

"Roger, don't you understand that this is a great historical moment and being alive to witness this is a privilege?" my boyfriend argued.

"Oh you and your nerdy things," Rog continued.

"Rog, leave him alone!" Jo asked in our favor.

I looked gratefully at my friend.

!Who guarantees that they're not lying and everything is a well-made filming?" Roger still answered.

"Sh!" I did it to him "just pay attention."

Roger's respect for me convinced him to be quiet.

It was really surreal to see what I was seeing. Men walking on the surface of the moon, the American flag stuck. I believed that all this could be real. Science evolved in constant motion, and if small wonders happened in my life, other people could also achieve wonders.