Through Chrissie's eyes

News

I drove back home very slowly, since my heart was racing. Me and Brian were about to make the decision, I felt that from him and I was much safer now, but then it happened. Sort of all of a sudden, but still ...

It was strange the mix of feelings I felt at the moment. I got home and sat on the couch, staring at the wall, trying to reconcile everything I was feeling. I was happy with the news, but suddenly I was even happier because I didn't detect any fear in me, at least I had no doubts about how I'd deal with it in the near future. My mind conjectured on how things would be in a more distant future, but soon I turned to the present, thinking of the gift I had won. And so, aware of the existence of someone very special, a different love instantly sprang into me. In short, I was overjoyed.

I thought it best to wait for Brian to arrive than to meet him in the studio. By late afternoon he came home and I was still nervous and wondering how to tell him. But before he noticed any secret in me, I noticed him worried.

"Did something happen?" I had to ask "are the boys okay?"

"Yes, Freddie..." he sighed "I'll tell you later, I promise. First tell me how it was with the doctor."

I was frightened by his request, which didn't go unnoticed by him.

"I mean, the results of the exams were good, I just ..." I was able to answer "I think my body took a while to get used to the mood of England again, when we came back from Brazil, but I'm fine, Bri. Now tell me what it was with Freddie."

"It's just that we miss Mary, you know how she's always in the studio when she can, and of course we asked Freddie if anything had happened," Brian explained painstakingly, sounding sad. "He just ... said that they broke up and the reason was none of our bussiness, that one hour or another we would find out why."

"Seriously?" I couldn't help but be sad "oh, why is Freddie like this? He never share his feelings with anyone ..."

"It's his way, darling, we try to give him space" Bri tried to remedy, "if he wants to, he tells us."

"Do you think it's bad that I call Mary, to see how she is?" I asked, not knowing if this would be bad for the band.

"No, not at all," Brian agreed "no matter what happened, she's still our friend."

I knew that by now Mary would be home, so I made my call.

"Hi, it's Chrissie, I heard what happened," I said in a sympathetic voice.

"Oh ..." Mary sighed sadly. "I ... Yeah, we couldn't be together anymore. I ... I know he still loves me, but ... he loves boys too ... and our relationship couldn't work that way anymore. You understand?"

"Yes, yes," I understood the side of the two of them "and if you need space, not want to see us for a while, I understand. Just know that you can continue to rely on our friendship."

"I know, I know," Mary replied, "thank you for listening ..."

"You're welcome, bye" I hung up, feeling sorry for Mary and Freddie.

It took a week for us to know that Freddie was in a relationship with Paul now. The boys had their suspicions that they were both flirting, but right now it seem like a serious engagement, they were together. We still loved and cared about Freddie, although we wanted to advise him to separate from Paul, he didn't want to listen.

One week was the time it took for everyone to get used to the changes and Mary's absence, although she still talked to me and the girls. So after everything calmed down, I still had my news to give Brian.

It was then that the perfect occasion arose for me to tell. After I had cleaned up the dinner mess, I sighed with courage and went to him.

"Bri, what do you say about we're going to Hyde Park now?" I said in an excited tone "to see the stars, you know? Like the old days ... It's been so long since we've done this, and whether or not I want to ... I miss it."

"Seriously?" he got excited too "it's a wonderful idea! I miss it too."

"Okay, so let's go." I nodded and exchanged a smile, nodding.

Then coming to the park, we stopped near where Brian and I had our first date. How could I forget that place? It was where he'd asked me to be his girlfriend, where we kissed for the first time. The perfect place to tell what I had to tell.

"My favorite place ..." sighed my husband, I could tell that he was also reliving his memories.

"Come, sit down." I tucked a blanket on the floor. "This time I remembered to bring a blanket."

He just laughed and sat down next to me. Our hands touched and Brian took my hand, looking up at the sky, and I did the same, we were silent for a while.

"Thank you for giving the idea ..." Brian thanked me, smiling. "I miss quiet moments like this ..."

"Yeah, I miss it too" I chuckled, but it was true. "Bri, I ... well, I ..."

"Tell me, you can tell me." He looked at me with concern.

"It's not an easy thing to say ..." I looked at my sweaty hands "I ... it's that ... we delayed making a decision about it for a long time and ... it kind of happened ... it's been a few weeks that I know, I was thinking of a way to tell you ..."

"Chrissie, tell me ..." Brian began to despair.

It was too wonderful to say with words, the emotion wouldn't let my voice out. I started to cry with joy, and I had an idea to end the mystery. I guided Brian's hands down to my belly. He understood immediately.

"You ..." He grinned. "I mean, we ..."

"Yeah, I'm pregnant," I finally managed to speak. "They'll finally stop charging us ..."

"And you're happy just for that?" Brian laughed "that's ... I ... God! I have no words..."

"Of course I'm happy" I said excitedly. "Bri, I dreamed about it, really, and I know you do too, so ... I don't believe that I ... I'm going to be a mother, ..."

"And I ... I ..." Brian breathed another, completely delighted "we're going to be parents. I think ... Now is a good time, really. We can do this together."

"Yeah, yeah," I started to look at things from a more optimistic perspective. "I'll help you and you'll help me."

"Are you kidding?" Brian laughed " it's not for nothing that Roger calls you mother, you will know to help me much more than I'll know how to help you."

"Oh, but you're a bit of a dad too" I said, thinking of Freddie and Roger's antics. "You keep the boys from getting into trouble. But it's teamwork, we're in this together."

"More than ever," my husband touched my face gently, looking at me in that way that moved me so much "I love you."

He leaned in to kiss me, then hugged me, holding me for a while.

"I love you" Brian said again, "and our son! Or daughter ..."

"And I love you both" I said at last, relieved that I'd been able to tell, because Brian was as happy as I was.

Because I had my own family, which was growing, and that was so special.