Love can get another chance?

Triggering past

(a/n: it's 2nd time happening in wattpad where i typed 1200 words and only 600 words got published, the same thing happened again... i republished it with a full chapter do check it out guys... sorry for the inconvenience happened)

"love is directionally proportional to sacrifice" this is the quote anika believes and made her take the toughest decision in her life. she took a notepad from the desk in her one bhk house which gave her unconditional love which was enough to lead the rest of her life. she can't even able to take the pen, it's because of her decision or because of weakness she don't know and she don't even want to know. the thing roaming in her mind was to go away from her husband's and her daughter's life. she don't even want to continue living here and harm them.

she cried, she cried as much she can, to leave her loving husband and 6 months old daughter to leave behind. but she has no other option left. she opened the notepad and took a pen in her shivering hands where tears started to group before her eyes and she started to write. but tears in her eyes blurring the vision before her. she raised her and took a deep breath to relax but nothing works. she wanted to move ahead and write but the words aren't grouping in her mind. she got frustrated and started to look around in anger and threw the notepad and the pen in the corner of the room. her eyes met with a photo frame of her 6 months old daughter. she got courage, she wiped her tears and move towards the corner of the room, took the pen and notepad. she sat on the floor and started to write.

dear shivaay,

Don't know where to start! there was a time shivaay when i close my eyes i tend to see you happy, smiley face but now in these 2 years i tend to see only your struggle before my eyes. how long i can resist this is the truth, it's all happened because of me. you shouldn't have married me shivaay. you should have to choose your family over me.

ok, whatever happened is happen. hereafter i will not interfere in your life and harm you and our daughter more. i am leaving shivaay, i know you love shivanya to an extent, don't worry i won't separate you from her because i knew you will be the best parent for her. i know what you will be thinking while writing this letter. i am not going to die shivaay, i am just moving away from you. i won't die and let my fate to win against this battle. let's see how much it will hurt me? let's see how much it make my life bitter? but i won't let it win shivaay. i will fight but the only difference is i am going to fight it lonely and i won't let any one of you guys to suffer because of me.

tell shivanya that her mother died when she was 6 months old because i am not going to interfere in your life hereafter. keep smiling, live happily. tell shivanya that her mother loves her to an extent don't make her hate me and please you, don't hate me shivaay. i can't bear that. i was your well-wisher, i am your well-wisher and always be your well-wisher.

with loads of love,

anika.

she folded the letter into four, moved out of the room and kept it under their couple photo. she moved out but her heart started to beat fast when the thought of going away from her child hits her head. she literally becomes weak and rushed inside her house, opened her daughter's wardrobe. she took her dress and a photo of her foot holding by shivaay and her and rushed outside. by that time she steps away from the house, she heard crying sound of her daughter. she was shocked. that spot she woke up in a jerk and landed in shivaay's concerned eyes.

this is not the first time she's getting this dream, she gets this nightmare whenever she wants to sleeps. most of her nights became day because of this dream. whenever she gets this nightmare she feels like killing herself but unfortunately, she can't do so, as she promised shivaay in her letter. if she didn't have mentioned those words, she would become a corpse now. her eyes met with shivaay's concerned eyes but she tried her level best not to convey her emotions to him. but he caught it. 

"everything is alright... relax...ani" words came from shivaay's mouth in a very low tone. she can able to sense the pain in his tone. in no time, he hugged her and started shower his kisses on her neckline where he usually does to make her smile and blush but now no magic is created in her body, infact it created more pain. she didn't hug him back and didn't convey her emotions to him, somehow he caught it and shower it outside.

"i love you ani... i can't see you like this... please come back... i can't see you like this" - shivaay started to cry on her shoulders while whispering it on her right ear. she held herself back on hearing his feelings but the word i love you triggered her more in doing such things. she pushed shivaay out of her embrace and he landed on the floor. he stared at her shockingly.

"keep the distance... i don't need you..." - she said and about to get up from that place but she again collapsed and thuds herself on the couch. shivaay stood up and tried to calm her off but she wasn't ready to calm down. she was continuously resisting his touch even after knowing it's her only medicine to come out of this phrase. 

"what i did? why are you punishing me like this?" - shivaay asked her of the blue, but anika wasn't ready to answer any of his questions but instead wanted to ask a question to him. she wiped her face and stood steady. he leaned down on the floor and yearned to hear her voice,

"you know why i am still living in this world?" - she asked him, a lone tear escaped from her eyes hearing her words. he nodded no.

"because i promised you... that i won't end my life on my own hands... but you betrayed me" - anika said where shivaay hands went to cup her face but she stops. 

"what do you want me to do? tell shivanya that her living mother died when she was 6 months old... do you really think i can able to do that? what did the hell happen to you? have you lost it"- shivaay asked her in a slight high tone, she signed disbelief. 

"do you think i can ever able to do that? i loved you, i still love you for heaven sake... can't you get that in your stupid mind" - shivaay yelled out of sudden. 

"I ASKED YOU SAY THAT HER MOTHER DIED ON 24TH MARCH 2017 AT 4 PM... AND IT'S TRUE IN ONE SIDE... YOUR LOVELY ANIKA AND SHIVANYA'S MOTHER DIED AT THAT SPOT... WHATEVER YOU'RE SEEING NOW IS JUST HER CORPSE"  - anika yelled back at him. he found it will be an utter waste to talk with her now. 

"KHANNA"- he yelled while facing the door. 

"yes.. sir..." - he excused himself.

"here is her passport and visa... prepare everything... we are leaving to India today evening..." - shivaay said while facing anika where anika's face went pale hearing his words.