On The Cold Night

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It's weekend and Ravi hated it but he failed to the acting activity. The others including Leo however passed. He got more annoyed that Leo said Jimin asked to join him on the way to the practice room. He is wondering why the girl still needs to go to the punishment of the failed students when she acted nicely. He fixed his shoelace and was startled by a knock. He opened the door and found Jimin smiling.

"You ready?" she asked. Ravi smiled awkwardly and continued his business. "Hi Leo." she said. Leo just turned to her and back to his book. Ravi frowned and looked at Jimin. She shrugged with a frown. Ravi turned back to Leo but he just kept reading without any expression. 'Did they fight?' Ravi thought. He stood up and fixed his collar.

"Hamster. I'm leaving now." he said. Leo just raised his hand as an answer with his eyes still glued to the book. He sighed and walked out with Jimin. Leo stopped reading and stood up. He abandoned the beanbag and laid on his bed. He gave himself a time to think about his decisions.

'Am I really doing the right thing? Isn't it like betraying Hyuk and the others for their trust on me?.....But....are they really right?  Am I wrong for thinking it's the best for Ravi? But it really is. Jimin is right. He is a guy and needs a lady. If we become together, he'll end up being discriminated by other people. I don't want him to fight them or get depress like me. I'm sure he won't go far from liking me. He will never think of marrying a man....and what will happen if I'll stay with him? Will he have a better life? He won't have any child of his own. He will be force to adopt kids. His mother already hated him for the fact that he is into a guy....into me....I'm sure she'll hate me too if she finds out that it's me who demonized her son.......But if I stay away from him....he may find someone else....realize that he is for a woman and not for a man. He may live a normal life without any one critisizing him. He won't commit a sin and may marry in a normal way. He may have a children on his own. He may have a normal family....his mother will love him with his wife and children....he will be the best person he is without me.'

Streams of tears soaked his face. He didn't dare to wipe them as he can't also stop. He is in so much pain that he can't even lift himself and go to the bathroom. He took out his razor from the pocket of his bag and pulled down his pants then gashed his thighs continuously, not minding the stinging pain. He did it over and over untill he got tired. He laid there like a victim of a murder scene, letting his covers and bed sheets to get stained. With his last thought, he made a final decision which is letting go of Ravi.

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Soomi settled the book she is reading on the coffee table and took a sip of the milk tea that Hani made. She looked at Hongbin who is also reading a book beside her. He is reading the book that includes their current lessons in math. She smiled at the sight. She had got over Leo but her memories with him will remain a wonderful tressure for her which is why she got too carried away from her and Hyuk's acting. Nevertheless, she is attracted to Hongbin now. She feels like a bitch for having two exes from the squad of the boys but she can't be wrong this time. She can feel that Hongbin likes her too but wonder why isn't he admitting it yet. She is respecting his decisions though. Hongbin turned to her when he noticed that she has been staring.

"Hey, I'll melt if you keep staring at me like that." she quickly blushed and looked down to her drink shyly. He laughed and pinched her cheeks. "Cute." he said. She blushed more but suddenly someone pinched her cheeks again but on the other side.

"Ayiieeee!!! Cute. Hahaha!" Hyuk said but stopped when the girl glared at him. "Sorry." he said. "Just why the hell are you two reading a math book like it's a mangga. It's fucking boring." he quickly covered his mouth when Hakyeon paused from cutting vegetables and dried his hands. Hyuk quickly hid beside Hongbin as if he can't be seen at the spot. Hakyeon hit his back continously where he groaned. Soomi and Hongbin laughed at the boy.