On The Cold Night

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They have been spending four weeks in school with the same situations. Ken and Hani, pretending to be together, Soomi and Hongbin getting more and more closer, Hyuk being a huge baby as always, Hakyeon being a mom like usual, Leo being distant to Ravi, and Jimin being clingy to Ravi. Leo just kept his distance to the both of them. He thought why not let her cling to him? It might lead Ravi to realization of what would be his life is suppose to be with a girl and not with a guy or rather not with him.

He put his mug down to the side table. It's nine and he had just took a shower after Ravi. He took out his earphone and a book. He had been doing it every night so Ravi won't disturb him to even have a small talk. He needs to show locking of interest in him. He pretended to play a music and started trailing his eyes through the lines, not really reading any single word. Ravi is staring at him which is why he is pretending to be at it again.

"Taekwoon." He shudered at the sudden direct addressed to his name but he managed not to show any expression. Ravi frowned.

"Hey." Still no reaction. "Goodnight.....I love you." he said while directly staring at his eyes. Leo took a deep breath. Ravi is still staring at him and he just want him to go to sleep already. Luckily, Ravi finally switched the headlight on. He sighed and looked back to his book.

"Aren't you going to sleep yet?" Ravi asked.

"Yeah." he answered and then widened his eyes. Ravi stopped from fixing his bed, still having his back facing him. Leo frozed and so as Ravi. He cursed himself mentally. Ravi turned to face him with a hurt expression. Leo closed his eyes firmly and bowed his head but Ravi took of his earphone a bit harshly and snatched his book away then lifted his chin up. He kept his eyes tightly shut.

"....Taekwoon." Leo sighed deeply but stayed that way. "You heard me, right?" Leo didn't reply for few minutes but opened his mouth when he found the courage to make a lie as always.

"My music ended then I heard you asking me." he replied defensively. Ravi frowned more.

"....you didn't hear anything else?" Leo nodded. Ravi smirked sarcastically as it opposed his current emotions. He lean closer and pulled his head to his chest. Leo opened his eyes. "...then let me repeat it." Ravi said then lean on his ear. "I love you, Taekwoon." he said. Leo tighten his jaw. He don't want to cry knowing it will let him know how he liked what he heard. "Aren't you....going to say something?....It's been awhile since when I heard it from you." Leo clutched at the bed sheets tightly.

"R-Ravi. It's late now. We need to sleep-"
"Taekwoon, what's wrong?" Leo shut his mouth again. Ravi kissed his temple and stayed there.

"...we need to sleep now." Leo tried to convince him which only made him look stupid.

"If we're already together, will you stop being like this and can we stay in each other's arms again?" Ravi asked. Leo widened his eyes. Of course, Ravi wasn't expecting him to respond. He just pulled him more untill he is between his legs. He hugged him tightly not caring if it hurts him. He wants him to feel his love with the pain from his tight hug.

"R-Ravi..." Leo whined.

"I love you, Taekwoon. Please always remember that. I don't want you to be with someone else. I'm giving you space if that's what you need but I won't go away from you. I'm always here. I'll never stop loving you for who you are." Leo lose it and teared in his chest. Ravi tighten the hug but let go as he laid the both of them on his bed and pulled the sheets over them. He pulled his head on his chest again and wraped his arms around him, hugging him as if he would disappear if he wouldn't. Leo sobbed but relaxed at the warmth of his embrace. "Sleep now, my love." Ravi said. Leo nodded and closed his eyes. He knows how he reacted is a big mistake to his plan but he is confident to his following actions. He is sure Ravi will lose his embrace to him and soon will walk away from him without turning back.