avengers imagines

• I Love You || Bucky Barnes •

a/n: uh last time i checked i only had 100 reads, which is crazy enough. and now its over 300? near 400? thats- insane. thank you :-). muah. based on the song "i love you" by billie eilish <3.

reader is an avenger with teleportation powers reee.
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It's not true
Tell me I've been lied to
Crying isn't like you
Oh-oh-oh
What the hell did I do?
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through

Screaming. He was screaming, he was asleep. "Wake up, Buck! It's me, it's okay. You're okay. You're safe." you shook Bucky, but he didn't budge. He didn't stop screaming and it was torture, knowing you couldn't help him. Considering the fact that Bucky was screaming from the top of his lungs, it didn't take long before Steve came rushing in. "What happened?" he said, still tired since it was three in the morning. You genuinely didn't know what was happening. Bucky hasn't had a nightmare in almost a year, why now? He was crying, stirring in his sleep. Crying isn't like him. "Buck! It's me! Wake up!" you said loudly, only to be smacked across the face by Bucky, causing him to jolt up from his sleep. What the hell did I do?

He's never been the type to let someone see right through. But, when he woke up, I easily read him. Even someone who didn't know him could. He's broken. "What happened, Buck?" you whispered. You didn't want to startle him. But, you wanted to know the truth. You didn't get smacked for nothing. "A year.." he mumbled, almost inaudibly. "What?" I questioned. "Don't.." Steve said, making both of us jump. You forgot he was there. Bucky just sighed. "Buck?" you questioned once again. "It took me a year to realize.." Tears fell down his face. You went up to wipe them, to calm him. Before you could touch him he gently moved your hand away from him. "It took me a year to realize that I'm no good for you. That I'm not safe..." Another long pause, causing tears to fall down your face as Steve shook his head. You both knew what was to come. "You deserve better, Y/N. I love you, but you don't deserve this..." he said. "Bucky, no. (Bucky, yes, lmao.) Please, don't. You're all I have, Bucky please!" I cried. "Don't you see it? Don't you see I'm bad for you? Why won't you fucking understand that? Get out!" Bucky yelled. "Buck, I know you. You're gonna regret this.." Steve said. "I already do."
Snap. Poof.
Blue smoke appeared, causing Bucky to sob, touching where you once were.

Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to

You teleported to your room, quickly packing a bag of clothes and supplies, glancing around it one last time. You looked for your hair brush, which was on your dresser. Right next to it was a framed picture of you and Bucky, smiling happily on your birthday. You wish. You wish you could be as happy as you were in that photo. Your smile being the widest it's ever been. Bucky laughing at the frosting he had just put on your nose. Your hand near his face about to put frosting on his. Bucky wore a ridiculous birthday hat, just for you. You wore a birthday crown along with a sash. Whilst everyone was intoxicated you and Bucky were as sober as can be, enjoying the moment, making memories you were sure to remember forever. Looking at that picture brought tears to your eyes, your sadness quickly fading and turning into rage. You grabbed your bag and threw it over your shoulder. You picked up the picture frame, only to throw it across the room, causing a loud glass shattering noise to be heard by all the avengers. Bucky was the first to run to your room.

Bucky's P.O.V.
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Steve left me in my room, crying alone. I had just lost the most important person in my life. The one person that kept me sane. The one person that didn't care about my past. The one person that loved me. I screwed it up. For good. I was pulled out of my train of thoughts by a loud glass shattering noise. It seemed as if it was coming from Y/N's room. I ran as fast as I could, kicking down her locked door. All I saw was blue smoke. "I told you you'd regret it..." Steve said, sighing. I looked behind me to find all the other avengers, woken up by all the noise. Tony and Nat pushed past me and went towards the shattered glass. "What did you do?" Tony asked with so much rage in his voice. Nat stayed quiet, staring down at the picture that had escaped from the glass. "She's gone." Nat finally spoke with pain in her voice. I slid down the wall, crying for, what seemed like, the 100th time that night.

Up all night on another red eye
I wish we never learned to fly
I-I-I
Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
I didn't mean to make you cry.

Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to

Nat handed me the picture. I clutched it tightly to my chest. All the avengers left to begin their search for Y/N. I didn't bother getting up. If I'd known better I'd say she's probably on another continent. She's untraceable. I didn't mean to say 'I love you'. I didn't mean to make her cry. I didn't mean to get too attached. But I did. I got attached to Y/N, though I knew this moment was bound to happen. I knew all along that I was bad for her. That she deserved better. But, I also knew that I'd get too attached. And now? I love her and I don't want to.

a/n: i wrote this at 2am sorry if it sucks. part two?