Trust // Cody Bellinger

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Sahar 🌙
"So i need to tell you something" i tell matt. We're currently at the gas station. We have a BUSSY day today. We're filming with TeenVouge , Cosmopolitan , Seventeen , ELLE, CQ , First We Feast , WIRED , J-14 magazine and Buzzfeed Celeb. It's currently 6:50am. We're suppose to be there at 7. We're starting off with ELLE. "What?" He asks. "You're pregnant?" He asks and i slightly chuckle. "I don't know" i say. "What do you mean you don't know?" He asks. "I haven't taken a test. I've just been feeling dizzy and nauseous at times which is what i felt for Eli" i say. "You gotta take one" he says and i nod. James gets in the car along with benny and we leave. I'm actually nervous. Matt tapps my leg and he shows me his phone. "Telling hazel to get the test. The first we feast is eating pure spicy shit and if you are you aren't doing it" he typed on his notes and i nod.

I don't think i am , but we just have to make sure. "Yeah I'll just have a water" i say and the girl hands me a figi water bottle. "Thank you" i say. "What side do you want?" Matt asks. "Right" i say walking over to the chair and we both sit. I take a sip of my water and i put it down next to my chair. We already go explained everything. "Ready go" the cameraguy says. "Hello its Matthew" matt says. "And Sahar Luna" i say. "And today we will be playing Song Association with Elle" he says. "We will be given a word and we have to sing a song with said word in 10 seconds" i say. "This is a competition by the way" he says. "Also a disclaimer we aren't proffesionals" i say and he nods.

"Beautiful" a lady says and they show us the timer and i ring the bell first. "Hey Beautiful Beautiful angel love your imperfections every angle" i sing. "Beautiful girls all over the world" matt says after me. 1-1. Out of 15. "Sweet" she says. "Hands, touching hands Reaching out, touching me, touching you Sweet Caroline" i sing and get a point. "Yup i got nothing" He says and i chuckle. "Strangers" she says. "We're not lovers we're just strangers" matt sings. "Strangers waiting up and down the Boulevard" i sing. 2-2. "Anymore" she says. Oooooo. "I dont wanna be you anymoreeeeee" i sing and matt chuckles. "Cartier" she says and matt chuckles. "Nothing on you when you naked except that Cartier bracelet" i say and chuckle. 4-2. "Lovely" she says. "Isn't it lovely all alone" we sing and chuckle. 5-3.

We're now at WIRED. "Hello Its Sahar" i say. "And Matthew Luna" he says. "Today we're doing the WIRED autocomplete interview" we both say. We then get a board. We're starting off with matt. "Who is Matthew Luna dating?" I read. "Tea" i say chuckling. "I'm not in a relationship. Even if i was i wouldn't say it" he says chuckling. "Who does Matthew Luna live with?" I ask. "I live with my family" he says. "Who is with Matthew Luna?" I ask. "Right now I'm with a bunch of people doing this interview" he says and i chuckle. "Who is the girl in Matthew Luna video?" I ask. "She's my sister. This girl right here" he says.

"Who is Sahar Luna son?" He asks. "My son is Eli Bellinger" i say. "Who is Sahar Luna dating?" He asks and i chuckle. "Slickkkkkkk" i say. "I'm dating this human being" i say and matt laughs. "Who is Sahar Luna?" He asks. "I don't even know" i say. "Who is friends with Sahar Luna?" He asks and i chuckle. "Completely sane human beings who can handle me" i say. "What does Sahar Luna do on a daily basis?" He asks. "I spend time with my son and work. I sometimes hang out with this dude right here" i say. "What is Sahar Luna's favorite drink?" He asks. "Starbucks? 21+ drink?" I ask. "Starbucks would have to be a tall Java Chip Frapp. My mans kinda got me on that. Either that or a mango dragonfruit refresher. 21+ drink would have to be , I'm basic and i RARELY drink. I always get a margarita or a piña colada" i say and matt chuckles.

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"Tell me what it says" matt says secretly handing me the box with the tests and i nod going inside the bathroom and locking the door. "Oh myyyyy" i say to myself. The nerves definitely kicked in hard af. I of course want more kids but timing right now isn't good. I quickly do my business and pee on the sticks. I wash my hands then set the timer for 3min when i get a text from both matt and cody. Matt says "are you done?" I reply with "yes. Waiting on the results". Cody's says "landing in a few. Family dinner date night tonight don't forget" i text back with "i would never forget dudeeee I'm still working. Do you just wanna meet at my dads? Him and matt have a business dinner. We can get food and watch movies or have a bonfire?"

My timer goes off and i slowly get the test seeing the result is like some weight was lifted off my shoulders. I then check the other one and its the same. I'm not pregnant. I let out a sigh of relief. Not gonna lie 5% of me wanted it to come out positive. But i know its not the right time. When time is right we will have another baby. I'm not and won't rush anything. I put them back in the box and put the box in my bag then leave. "What did it say?" Matt asks and i shake my head no.

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"I'm straight chillen"

"Zadddddd" i tell cody and lay next to him. "Sexyyy momma" he says and i chuckle. "Our son is going to be 2 soon" i say. "I know. My buddy" he says and i frown. "My baby" i say. "We can make another one" he says and i chuckle. "I'm serious" he says. "I know. I just want it to be at the right time" i say. I told him about earlier and i could tell he was a bit let down. "I know" he says. "When would be a good time?" He asks. "After the wedding" i say. "I don't want to be pregnant on my wedding" i say. "You'll be a GORGEOUS pregnant bride" he says and i chuckle. "Nopeeee" i say. "So momma Jen is coming tomorrow with Ash" he says.  "I know. We're going to look at dresses" i say. "Oh really?" He asks and i nod.

"Who's going?" He asks. "My grandma , matt and ky" i say. "What about your mom?" He asks. "We haven't talked" i say. "When was the last time you talked?" He asks.  "We were at the hospital with Eli. So almost 2 years" i say. "I have nothing against her honestly , i just feel like if she wanted a relationship with me and matt or just me she would at least reach out and try you know? I won't force her into a relationship with me. All though i would LOVE for E to have a relationship with her just like he does with my dad i won't force it" i say and he nods.

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Y'all its hot AF 🤦🏻 i HIGHKEY prefer when its cold. I don't like when it rains because with rain comes thunder/lightning and no thank you no sirrrrrrrrrrr🙅🏻

Have yall watched stranger things S3? I finally was able to finish watching it a few days ago and OMGGGG LAST EPISODE HITS DIFFERENT.

Q; who do you think should win Rookie of The Year (dodger team)?
I would choose Alex tbhhhhh.

(Did y'all see cody get ejected?????? SIS WAS PISSED OFF. "Aight fuckin horseshit" DAMN! who even says horseshit???? ..... don't let the kid get mad...)