Trust // Cody Bellinger

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Sahar 🌙
So its been a couple of days since the meetings. Today I'm taking the invitation to my mom. She lives in Long Beach again. Why? She supposedly wants to live a "private" life. So a few months back she and Sebastian her sugar baby ... 😂 got married. I DISLIKE him with a PASSION. There's something about him i don't like , his vibe isn't something i like. I mean their whole relationship is wrong. That weird gross age gap is DISGUSTING. But hey .... not my business ... Its literally if her and matt .... I'm just gonna stop there thats too much.

"Goodluck" my dad says. "Thanks" i say and chuckle. "Be nice to poppa" i tell eli and he nods. My dad came over why? He said he wanted to hang out with Eli. I'm going to my mom's by myself , Benny is staying with them. The drive is max 30min away. I soon arrive and park. The audacity this woman has , she lives in our old house. The house matt and i grew up in. This house. Wow. Has many memories. Cody and i began dating in this house. We said "i love you" in this house. We broke up in this driveway. I got sarah. I began hanging out with Gray and Eth. Damn. That's crazy.

"Sahar Luna" Sebastian says trying to put up this "tough" guy look. But like billie says , I'm the bad guy. So don't fuck with me. "Sebastian" i say. "Where's my mom" i say. "Great to see you too. She's inside. Would you like to come in?" He asks with the same tone while moving from the door and i walk in. It looks different yet the same. Decor is different but the memories bring it back to look the same. I follow him to the kitchen and he sits. "Sahar!" She says getting up and hugging me. "Hi" i say. "Hi! You should've told me you were coming i could've prepared something" she says. "It was last minute" i say.

"Where's eli?" She asks. "With my dad" i say and she stays quiet. "Are you busy?" I ask. "No , we were just looking through some papers" she says and i nod. "How's eli?" She asks and her eyes go down to my ring. "He's great" i say. "You're still engaged? I thought you left him" seb says ooooo dude i WILL go off. TRY ME HOE. I simply chuckle and ignore him. "How's cody?" She asks. "He's great" i say. "Matt? I hear he came out" she says. "Matt is great. He did. But its not my place to speak about it. Or speak about him without him present" i say.

"So whatsup?" Seb asks. "I'm not here to see you nor does my visit involve you" i say and he stays quiet. "I know you came for something but i just have a question" she says. "So at my age i cannot have anymore kids. Sebastian is still young and we want more. We spoke about it and he came up with the idea of him to impregnate a girl. I'm still not too fond with that idea so we agreed to have a surrogate. I was wondering if you can be our surrogate" she says. WAIT WHAT. HOLD TF UP. WHAT. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY?

I stay quiet and they just look at me. I'm just trying to process the words in my head. I need to know what to say without it sounding bad. "No sorry. I have my own family I'm trying to have" i say and he chuckles. "Anyways i came to give you this" i say giving her the invitation. "The honour of your presence is requested at the marriage of Ms. Sahar Luna to Mr. Cody James Bellinger. Saturday, the  fourteen of December" she reads. "In costa rica?" She asks and i nod. "Congratulations" she says. "Thank you" i say. Soo i was talking to my dad and he said not to write anything on the invite he said thats rude. So i didnt but I'm still with that decision. I DONT want him at my wedding.

"Yeah we'll definitely be there" she says. "I don't know how you'll take this but this is how it's going to be. Out of respect for my dad , he isn't invited" i say and his eyes widen. "Why?" She asks. "He's my husband. Your stepdad. He's my family" she says. "Nope never. You knew than and to this day know i dislike him" i say. "I respect my dad , I don't want him to have to deal with seeing him. That'll be a slap to his face and thats something i wouldn't do" i add and they stay quiet. "You know what. At the end of the day the decision is your's. We haven't talked in a year almost two. I did my part , i came and gave you an invite" i tell her.

"If you decide to go then good if you don't thats fine. He's your "family" now and i would understand you choosing him over me" i say. "This isnt a choosing game Sahar" she says. "But it is. You chose him over us that moment you decided to cheat and destroy a family. Destroy a man's trust. We reconnected for a few weeks then he didn't approve of you spending time with YOUR DAUGHTER when she MOST NEEDED HER MOTHER! You chose him over me when i needed you. Since that moment you haven't attemeted to speak to me" i say. "We have our own kid Sahar. You're 21 an adult you no longer need your mother" seb says.

"Dude shut up. No one is talking to you! This converstaion isn't between me and you. Its between me and her. If i was to have a converstaion with you it would be totally different" i say. "I won't let you speak to my husband like that. Congratulations on your wedding. I wish you and cody the best , i wish you happiness and a family full of blessing and joy. One day you will understand family comes first" she says and he chuckles. Wow. Unbelievable. "When this "marriage" goes to shit and you see him for the person he is just know it will be to late. Late for a reconcile with your kids. And although i did this because i wanted to have that mother daughter wedding experience like everyone else , i now realize its a stupid thing because we never had that and never will because for you I'll always be your last option" i say grabbing the invite and leave.

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Tell me why i got the sudden urgency to listen to 1D / watch videos and now idk how to feel ......

Q; favorite music genre? favorite artist/artist/group?

I listen to Rock , HipHop/Rap , R&B , Pop , Latin. (Rarely mexican when you get into those DEEP feels and you're really going through it)
Favorite artist/groups , Billie Elish (basic ik) , Khalid , Jack and Jack , Bazzi , Shawn Mendes , NF , PHORA , Drake , Kendrick Lamar , Travis Scott , Juice WRLD , G-Eazy , Post Malone , AC/DC , The Fray , The Killers , Journey , Bon Jovi , Aerosmith , Metallica , Queen (obvs) ,  Bad Bunny and Ozuna .

^ if only you can imagine my playlist lmao. It will take you on a rollercoaster of emotions 😂😂