Unique's notes- I'm afraid I didn't record the dates when I wrote these so most of the dates have gone missiiiiing from my brain. I roughly know the years though. Not that dates are nessesary, I just like using them!
(11/2018) HOSPITAL:
It's old now, but with every step that takes me closer it feels cold and new.
Curse myself for feeling this anxiety when another mile is shed off
I'll say it plainly; I'm petrified.
I hate this place.
It does everything right and saves so many a day.
Yet it is the worst place I have ever entered.
Because I almost left without you.
(12/2018) ANXIETY:
It rises from the soles of my shoes
It fizzes and pops like needles under my skin
I feel my body internally convulse
It hurts.
Get me out of here!
It's electric in my veins, scorching the cells
My fingers are ripped to bleeding;
I'm trying to bite this weight away
This suffocating weight palpitating in my chest
I need to run. I need to fly
I'm screaming
Run! RUN!
(3/2018) I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER YOU HAVE:
Being scared for another's life
Is not something I want to consider normal.
As I hold an apple that is bruised and broken
She tastes sweet and sour from the unfairness always hurting her
But now as I open my eyes
And Let sweet denial go
All I can see is that I have been sourly afraid for her life
For many, many years now
No fruit has blood untainted
When the paroxysm takes it's generous tole from her
And when she is shaking hands with death every day
I know she is more terrified for her life
Than I have ever felt
And already
The Apple core is blackening with mold
And we both think it normal.
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Am I 'Absolute'?
PoetryMostly poems and art, some quotes and short stories. Not everything is an original of mine, so if it isn't I will state so on the page. 😊 Also: Helloooo! Oh my gosh! #1 in original poems!!
