Am I 'Absolute'?

158: I guess this is this:

17/Aug/20:

I can sit at my desk
For days years hours
But not a word will come out
That I won't rub out
Because I can't put into words
This feeling I have with you.
I can't string a sentence a play a single letter
That will be enough to express this.
The life of I love you.
Honestly love can hold that universe
And so many more.
So maybe I will sit at my desk
And write I love you all over the paper
Until the white is a thick sheet of black.
But even that won't be enough
To truly hold the swirls
That comprise love in a word.
So I will stare at the desk
Then leave.
And when I see you I will look into your eyes
Notice all the smallest things and how each one
Creates this feeling I can barely hold without it flying
But I can't say a word that will be right.
And even love in that moment won't be enough
Because you are beyond words