Freedom from Seduction (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 4

Deja Vu

Dahan dahan kong binuksan ang isang pintuan at nakakita ng restroom. I immediately showered and rubbed my whole body with the loofah. I had no time to take the big jacuzzi or the bath tub. Kung gagawin ko, kahit na gaano ko namiss iyon, baka mapatay pa nila ako sa sobrang tagal ko sa loob. I am not even exaggerating.

"Aww." I said when I accidentally rubbed my cut with a loofah.

Itinuloy ko na ang pagligo at ginamit ang isa sa mga puting tuwalya roon. I almost cried while experiencing the luxury. It's like I went back when I haven't done the things I did.

Lumabas ako at binuksan pa ang isang pinto at ipinakita noon ang mga damit ng babae. My heart pounded loudly as I graced the whole room with my eyes. I missed this. Pero hindi. Hindi mo na ulit makukuha ang ganitong klaseng karangyaan, Venice. Ang mapunta lang rito, ang mabigyan ng pagkakataon maranasan ulit ang ganitong klase ng pagtrato ay hindi mo na makukuhang muli. You still should be grateful hut you shouldn't expect anything anymore. Not after what you've done. And not also because you're in a mafia territory once again.

I didn't want to be picky. Baka iyon ang ipagamit sa akin sa mahaba muling pagkakataon kaya't hinanap ko ang pinakakomportable. Nakakita rin ako ng salamin na puno ng mga kagamitan kaya inayos ko ang mukha ko.

Once again, Venice. Treat yourself. Baka ito na ang huli mong pagkakataon.

I used the lotion and the body perfume before putting on a light make up. I didn't want to abuse the use of the cosmetics since this might be for someone else. Ang liptint nalang ang ginamit ko pati na rin ang pulbo. I also used the liptint to tint my cheeks. I smiled as I looked at myself only to see tears rolling down my cheeks.

Cheer up, Venice. Hindi ba sinabi ng nanay mo, whatever you do and wherever you are, you should always be grateful?

I wore the red tank top and the blackjogger that was the most appropriate clothes to wear. Kinagat ko ang labi ko habang tinitignan ang sariling repleksyon sa salamin. I had always wondered what I look like after the days of being locked up in the dungeon. Now that I had seen myself once again, I remembered the things I did more clearly. Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata. I badly want to say sorry. But what do I do? After that, what will happen? Sorry isn't enough. Sorry isn't gonna be good enough.

Bumukas ang pintuan at iniluwa noon ang lalaki. He stared at me from head to toe. His disgusting red eyes looked at me as if he's tearing my clothes. But I didn't do a thing. After all, these aren't enough to be forgiven.

"Maganda ka nga." Tumaas ang isang sulok ng bibig na ito. "Sayang at naunahan ako!" He laughed.

I was glad that he thought someone owns me. Atleast I won't be raped in here! Pero ano ang ibig sabihin niya? I shrugged it off before walking towards the guy. Hinila niya ulit ako.

My eyes were greeted by darkness once again when we left the room. He dragged me and we took the stair up once again. Nang makuntento ay biglang tumigil kami sa harap ng isang itim na pinto. He knocked and the door opened right after. He pushed me inside and the door was locked once again.

I sighed and looked at the fire place, the black couch and the red and cold ambiance of the room. Tumigil ang mata ko sa pigura ng isang lalaki lalo na nang humarap siya sa akin.

Now, I can clearly remember him. His everything. Pero ngayon, pakiramdam ko ay marami nang nag-iba habang malamig ang tingin niya sa akin. His eyes got darker, his hair disheveled and his whole physique looked as if the angels did everything to make his body perfect. Kahit na may damit ay kitang kita ko ang hubog nito. I remembered what he did to me inside the dungeon. I can still feel his fingers in between my thighs. Umiwas agad ako ng tingin.