Anorexia, it kills - 01 ~ Yoongi X Bts ~

~ I'm Okay ~

Jimin giggled at the movie, "This is funny. I know I seem like such a child saying that...this is a kids movie!"

"At least someone's enjoying it," Namjoon says, taking a handful of popcorn from the bag of popcorn laid out on Jungkook's lap.

"I am too, I chose the movie after all~" Taehyung says, showing off his cute dimples in a big smile.

"And for that, I'll..." Jin says, before getting scared at the jump scare. He falls onto Taehyung, making everyone laugh.

Everyone giggles and laughs, before they're shushed by a mom, trying to watch the movie in silence with her child. Jimin and Jungkook exchange playful looks with each other, before everyone sinks back into silence while watching the movie. 

Silence, at last. 

I lean back on my chair, my eyes focusing anywhere, but on the popcorn. Don't tempt yourself, you selfish pig. 

I shiver, and rub my arms. 'I need to get out of here, it's too cold..' Hoseok looks over at me, then back at the screen quickly. Honestly, everyone has a tendency of looking at me. Bare looks at me, but their attention span will never reach a point where they look at me then talk to me.  I guess it's too hard, right? Wrong..

I find myself rushing off, and into the cinemas washroom. I go into a stall, and lean against the wall of it. Heavy breathes exiting my mouth. Not here, not now. I sigh, hoping this 'common panic attack' will just leave my body soon. I fall down onto my knees by the toilet, and find two fingers plunged down my throat. I empty what I ate out of me, 'goodbye two bottles of water'.

~ ~ ~

I sit down on the bench outside of the theatre, and scroll through photos I had posted, 

Min Yoongi

(I do not own this photo posted below)

Min Yoongi 

Min Yoongi Peace~

comments

jiminxlovee Yoongi could never match up to my baby Jimin

ewbtsew He needs to loose weight, hah

yoongiismine My baby is so cute, awe

I sigh to myself. I do need to loose weight. I tilt my head up and stare into the dim theatre hallway light. Fuck my body, fuck myself, fuck everything about me and my god damn life!

"Yoongi?" I hear a voice say softly, as an uprage of voices emerge from the theatre.

"Hm?" I say, looking up at who's in front of me, "What?"

"Where'd you go?" Jimin asks, sitting beside me now.

I fiddle with my thumbs along the back of my phone case, "Uhm...I went to the washroom?"

"For an hour?" He asks, tilting his head to the side. Why does he have to be so cute?

"Time flies by when you're having fun," I say, not even daring to make an eye contact, even though I can feel him looking my way.

"In the washroom? Fun? Okay..did you not like that movie?" He asks, as he motions for me to walk with him. The rest of the group is already waiting for us in front of the elevator. If it weren't for Jimin walking with me, they all would've gone down without me.

We all go into the elevator, as it slowly goes down a few floors. And no one even wonders where I was, how great..

"Answer my question. Was the movie bad?" Jimin says, in a hush voice.

"I don't know, Jimin. I only saw less then half of it," I remind him.

"You didn't leave the theatre to just go to the washroom, right? You did something else in that hour," he says, as I stare directly at the elevator floor.

We all exit the elevator, and I weakly speed walk ahead of everyone. Through the glass doors, and outside. I sit in the passenger seat of the SUV uber XL I ordered. "Just you?" The man asks, starting the car.

I nod, "Just me. And I'd like to change the location."

He starts driving, after I tell him the address of where to take me. I stare blankly out the window, and leave my phone shut down.

I lean my head against the window and close my eyes. And let some deadly thoughts enter my mind.