Anorexia, it kills - 01 ~ Yoongi X Bts ~

Kim Taehyung, let's chat.

Taehyung POV

"So, how was everyone's day?" Namjoon asks, as we're all seated for dinner. Hoseok looks feverish still, and I just wish the medicine would work faster. Better yet, him not be sick.

"Good!" Hoseok says, "Other then the shoppers experianceu."

"Stop putting a U at the end of words, hyung," Jungkook says, making his signature puppy dog eyes pop out at Hoseok.

"Jungkook-ah, I think it's cute," Namjoon admits, slightly smiling at Hoseok.

"Just kiss already!" Jin says, pushing at Namjoon's back, "You're harder to get together then Yoongi and Jimin-ah!"

Hoseok giggles, "Glad you think it's cute Joonie."

"They're secretly dating!" I lie out, laughing at my own nonsense.

"Wait....how did you find out?" Namjoon says, his face falling serious.

"That day, in our room. I told you Namjoon, it was too early," Hoseok says, blowing his nose into a tissue, as he had been doing about every ten minutes or so.

"I....uhm," I say, pulling at the collar of my sweater.

"Just kidding!" Namjoon says, as he notices my face going red.

"You sure know how to fool me," I say, smirking at him.

Hoseok yawns, "He sure does. Joonie, let's go sleep, I'm tired." He grabs Namjoon by the arm, and the two of the quickly head off to their room.

"I ship it," Jin shrugs, swirling his glass of water, before finally taking a sip, "Any one who disagrees, well.....bye bye!"

Jimin all of a sudden starts laughing his ass off at this. Yoongi, too. Even my Jungkook, he's laughing. They all look so happy laughing together, so I throw myself in too. I laugh at what Jin said, too.

Jin looked satisfied, as he had made all of us laugh. Even if I was pretty confused, I still laughed. Others seemed to enjoy it so, why not? I need joy, don't I?

Jimin and Yoongi are eating, and enjoying each others company. That is what matters most right now. They're happiness, and Jungkook's too. He looks happy, especially after a big meal.

i quickly realize they're all staring at me, as I come to a conclusion that my 'quick getting lost in my thoughts' had been a solid five minutes.

"Eat your dinner," Jin urges, as he takes the final bite of his spring roll.

I look up, then down. "Oh, I didn't eat anything," I say, "Whoops." I put my chopsticks closer to the food, and pick up some rice.

"Looks good, right baby?" Jungkook says, smiling as I raise it closer to my mouth. I nod, and search his eyes for approval. I find it, but I wish I hadn't.

I place it down, "No, no. I can't, why can't I eat?" I run my hands through my hair, and sigh, letting the pain endure me. Why can't I just eat? It looks so good, and I am hungry. I want to eat it, but why do I have a feeling that....I just can't? Maybe its becau-

"Taehyung-ah?" Yoongi says, as my eyes adjust on him, "You don't have to eat anything today. Tomorrow, you will eat."

"Jin-hyung?" I say, picking at a loose thread on my sweater, "Uhm...is that fine? If I do what Yoongi said?"

Jin nods, "Yes, but why can't you eat now Taehyung?"

I look down, "I don't know, I really don't know. I look at the delicious food, and I'm starving. I just can't make myself eat this week, I just can't. I don't have body hate, I just feel sick looking at it."

"Are you stressed," Jimin calls out, as our eyes get fixed on one of the younger's.

"Ah...no. I don't think I'm done with my phase," I mutter, hoping they know what I mean. Phase as in; self doubt, self hate, self harm.

"You haven't recently?" Jungkook asks, as I shake my head, "No, not since we all talked about it a week or so ago."

"What could it be that's getting to you so hard?" Jin says, pouting as he thinks, "Maybe, it's Yoongi and Jimin-ah?"

We all look at Jin, giving him confused looks, and passing those unsure looks onto each other.

I stare at my plate, because I just feel....like it might be right. "Y-yes..." I say, as I latch my hand onto Jungkook's, "I'm sorry...but I think you may have got it, Jin-hyungie."

Yoongi, Jimin, and Jungkook get up. Jin too, and they all exit the room. I sigh, and pull out my phone. I go onto my music, and play the most depressing tunes into my newly placed in my ears, headphones. I sigh, "e-everyone leaves."

I leave myself in tears, feelings my heart break into billions of pieces. Ripples, turned into smashed open holes of darkness in my mind.

My eyes trace to the knives on the table, and I gulp, "h-hyungs please come back," I cry, as the blade gets closer to my pale skin.

"Taehyung!" They all say, walking back in. JIn grabs the knife, "Aish, I told you all with my eyes. Leaving Tae alone was a BAD idea! All of you, to your rooms! Now!"

They all scurry away, leaving Jin hyung and me alone.

This'll be fun.

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