Anorexia, it kills - 01 ~ Yoongi X Bts ~

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Jimin POV

'Maybe I shouldn't'

You should.

'But, it isn't right. Now when he did it, and not when I do right now.'

On the count of three, just do it. It's what's best, isn't it?

'But, he might find out...'

He won't, you'll be fine.

I let out a small shiver, and it traces itself down my spine. The voice in my head, is loud. It cowers over my own thoughts. Or maybe it is my own thoughts. I really haven't figured it out well enough.

I stick two fingers down my throat, and nothing comes out.

You didn't eat anything, that's why nothing is coming out. Dumbass.

'Isn't that good?'

Not even stomach acid, you didn't do it well enough. Again, it takes a few tries until it actually comes out.

I try over and over, until finally, some stomach acid came out of it. God, it burns my throat. This awful feeling in my throat, it feels like when I have strep throat. Painful. I grab a lozenge, and sigh. It's a mint one, so it'll help with the scent and my throat. Two in one.

I hope on the scale; 116 lbs

Fat ass. Yoongi got down to, guess what, basically 70 lbs! You need to be skinny for him, or he'll never love you.

Tears prick at my eyes, and I break down.  

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"Babe," Yoongi says softly, knocking on the bathroom door, "You almost done?"

I flush the toilet, and wash my hands, letting out a quick, "Mhm," in reply.

I exit the washroom, and Yoongi looks at me, "Are you alright?" He traces his finger along my very visible collar bone, "And please tell me the truth."
I nod, "I'm good, don't worry. I just have a headache, I'm moving kinda slow from the dizziness of it."
He lifts his hand to my face, and places a finger under my chin, "I can get you some Advil, babe. I'm sorry about your headache, it'll go away, I promise."

I've had it for a week.

"Okay, I believe you. I don't need Advil, I-I don't need it but thank you baby."
We go to our bed, and we get in. He wraps an arm around me, cuddling me softly. I feel so cold, but Yoongi is so warm.

"You make me feel safe."

"Goodnight."

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This is probably really bad...
I'm sorry. But it's about Jimin now lol
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