Unrequited Love ~Lams~

15

*Week and a Half Later*

Rain droplets fell from the sky and onto the grave stone. I was soaked, but I stood there anyway. My face was wet, from a mixture of tears and rain.

Everybody else was gone, since the funeral ended a hour ago. My father hadn't even bothered to show up. He was probably at home, drinking, like he has been for the last two weeks.

Everything has gone downhill since then. It feels like everything is falling apart. Mary has been going through a mean phase ever since mom died. Henry has been even more quiet then usual. Martha and James don't really have a clue what's going on. I changed too, in ways that I wouldn't like to admit.

I heard footsteps behind me, and I looked over to see Herc, Laf, and Alex all walking towards me.

"I can't believe she's gone." Herc said, hugging me, his voice evidently sad. Laf did the same. My mother was like a second mother to them, especially since they stayed at my house almost every weekend. She treated them like her own kids. They even have their own spot at our dinner table.

"She was a really nice woman." Alex said, giving me a solemn look. He had met my mom a few times, when he had come over to work on homework. I think she sent him home with a batch of cookies.

"Yeah." I said, smiling to myself. "She was."

I felt myself starting to tear up. I quickly wiped the tears before they could fall, not wanting my friends to see me like this. "I-I'm sorry, I-"

I was cut off by Alex hugging me. "I understand..." He said, very quietly. So quiet, that I wondered if he had actually said it.

Before I knew it, I was sobbing into his shoulder. It all just hurt so much. I wasn't sure what I felt. Anger? Sadness? Pain? Mostly pain. He rubbed my back, comforting me.

"Don't worry John, I'm here."

After staying like this, for what feels like hours, but was only a few minutes, I slowly pulled away from his arms.

As much as I wanted to stay like that forever, he's dating Eliza. I don't want to get my hopes up, only for them to be ripped away. (MAKE SURE THIS MAKES SENSE)

"You ready to leave?" Laf asked, since he was dropping me off.

"Yeah, I'm just going to say goodbye..." I said, motioning to the grave stone.

They all nodded and left, leaving me alone.

I looked back at the gravestone. 'Elenor Laurens-Ball, wife and mother of five"

"Hey mom..." I said, lightly touching the top of the gravestone, not exactly sure what to say. "Henry and Martha miss you a lot. All of us do. It's not the same at home without you. Dad started drinking, again... probably because he misses you. Why did you have to leave? You didn't deserve this..."

I wiped the tears that had begun to surface. "Laf and Herc, aare waiting for me... they miss you too. You were like their mom." I said, laughing silently. "And Alex was here, too. I wish you were able to get to know him more."

After a few seconds of silence, I sighed continued. "I don't know what I was expecting... a response? Your gone. I'm sorry, mom... I'll make you proud. Don't worry."

I took my hand off the grave. "Goodbye mom..."

I walked towards Laf's car, with my head down.