A GIRL LIKE YOU

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"Does anybody know?" I couldn't keep my curiousity any more. "About your feelings for Aarav."
"Only Preeti. Other suspects, I guess but nobody ever confronted me other than her." Anya said and walked towards me. I stepped away as she began doing the dishes.
"Not even Aarav?"
"I think that he also suspects something but he never said that. We've always been great friends. But he never made a move on me even after getting full hints."
"Wow."
"Yeah. I know it's probably because of Ansh. I thought I could be courageous enough to tell him about my feelings. But I think I took too long. It's not going to happen now."
I put my hands on her shoulder.
"Hey, don't lose hope. Any thing can happen."
"You should know." She said and winked at me. I chuckled.
Yeah I definitely knew.
"I just want you to not hate him. He is a very nice guy, Kiara. A really good one. He messed up with you but..."
"I don't hate him. I really don't." I assured her.
"You are kinda cool." She said, and I beamed.
She likes me.
"Kiara! Come here I'll show you old pics of Ansh."
Ansh's mom's voice came from the living room. I smiled at Anya and went to the living room.
I definitely wanna see cute little naked Ansh. As soon as I entered, she pulled me beside her on the couch and began showing me pictures and explaining their origin. My attention dwindled as I looked around the room and couldn't spot Ansh and Preeti.
My heart beat fastened. I breathed heavily and tried to pay attention to the photo album. Ansh's dad settled on the couch in front of me and I knew for sure then, that Preeti and Ansh are together somewhere in the house.

Bile rose in my throat as I excused myself and ran off to the bathroom. I locked the door beside me and blocked out the confused expression of Ansh's parents when I left abruptly. I closed my eyes and leaned against the bathroom door.

I mean what did I think? That he is in love with me? Of course not. How long has it been. And look at Preeti. She is so perfect. She is nothing like me. I can't blame him for choosing her.
But Ansh said that he doesn't feel any thing for her. Or was it just a lie to get laid. For all I know, is that Preeti has been coming over to Ansh's house for years even after their breakup. I'm sure they still have feelings for each other or they still hook up sometimes. I mean why not?
I am definitely not someone who would make a guy like Ansh all tied up to me. If any thing, I'm sure I pushed him away and towards Preeti. He must've seen that what a huge mistake he made when he chose me. Who would want me? I'm nothing great.

"Kiara?!"
Ansh. He knocked at the door twice.
"You've been in there for long now. Are you okay?"
He sounds concerned. Oh he cared about me. Or is he just pretending?
Ugh. I hate my thoughts. I hate myself.
"I'm okay." I said and washed my hands for no reason and opened the door.
Ansh searched my face to see any sign of distress. But I gave him the most fake smile I could manage.
He didn't say anything as we went in the living room. Preeti and Anya left after a while of old pictures viewing, which by the way had a lot of pictures of Ansh and Preeti together, looking like two kids in love. How am I supposed to compete with a history like that?
Not long after that, I also made my excuse of being tired. Ansh took me to his room.
"I'll be sleeping in the room beside this. But I think we can hang out for a while before that." He said as I rumaged in my bag to find my night dress.
"No. I think I am coming up with a headache. I just wanna go to sleep." I lied and avoided his eyes as I began moving towards the door of the room to go and change.
Ansh suddenly blocked my way and grasped my shoulders in his hands.
"Look at me." His voice was sharp and commanding.
I sighed and looked up at him in the eyes.
"What is it? Did something happen? Anybody made you feel uncomfortable? Did anybody say something to you Kiara?"
Oh god. "No! Nothing happened. Nobody said anything. I'm fine Ansh. I'm just tired."
"You're lying. Why are you lying?" His hands moved to my face as he stepped even closer.
"I'm not lying." I lied.
"Baby, I know that you're lying." He said confidently as the intense frown on his face made me squirm. I gulped. I don't know what to tell him. I don't know what to ask him. I wanna cry.
I looked down at the ground.
"You are gonna tell me." Ansh said and then he was kissing me. The kiss was soft and comforting in the begining as it grew heated.
"Tell me." Ansh said in between kisses. "Please baby." He said as he moved to my jaw and neck.
The clothes slid away from my hands as I circled my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. I can't ever resist him.
He sucked at my neck and I moaned loudly. I totally forgot that we are not alone.
Shit we are here in his house with his family and.... Preeti. I suddenly pushed him away and stepped back a few steps.
"Kiara?"
"Leave."
"What?"
"I want you to leave. I- I want to be- need to be alone right now."
"What is wrong with you?" Ansh's voice grew a little louder this time. His frustration and anger visible on his face.
"So many things. Just leave."
"What?!"
"Ansh I want to be alone."
"Why? What did I do?"
"You did nothing."
Ansh stepped towards me. "Talk to me!" He said.
"No."
"Kiara, don't frustrate me."
"I'm sorry, I frustrated you. That is yet another reason you shouldn't be with me." I blurted out. Oh god. Why did I say that?

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