A GIRL LIKE YOU

50

It's not that I don't want to be engaged to Ansh. I love him. I know I'll be really happy with the knowledge that he is all mine and I can hold on to him for the rest of my life.
And from my parent's perspective, engagement is the right thing to do.
But for this once, I wanna do what I like. Ansh and I might love each other, but relationship is a whole new level of struggle. And for once I don't want to rush into things. I want to get to know him properly, spend some time together as lovers, and understand him. I want to do this properly, this time. I want to get married when I'm ready. Not when the world think I am. I want to get married when he proposes to me, not when my parents force him to.
So I told all of that to my mom and dad. And guess what? They did not understand. Instead they told me that our relationship is inappropriate as it is because I was supposed to be married to his best friend. They told me Aarav's family and Aarav himself won't be happy when he comes back and finds out. They told me how people would put our love in the category of something dirty and wrong just because. They told me how engagemnet can undo all of that.
I took everything that my parents had to say and only said one thing, "I am not letting anybody else take the decisions of my life anymore."
It's about time I stand up for myself. And if people wanna talk, they can talk. If they wanna put labels, they can. I'm not going to let them direct my emotions, my action, myself.

***
"Ansh..." I moaned when he bit me on the neck. We've been lying down and making out like teenagers for almost an hour now on the couch, ignoring the awful movie we thought we could watch. I don't know how we always end up watching the worst movies.
After the discussion at mom and dad's, my parents basically told me that they are not going to force me to do anything or not going to stop me either. But they made it very clear that they are not comfortable with me being Ansh's girlfriend. So I think it'll take some time for my parents to come around. They asked me to stay back, which I did. Ansh left after the breakfast and I spent the whole day with mom and Aaliyah who came over. I also spent a few good hours going through my messages and emails as I told everyone that I'm still alive and cleaning my room and doing laundry. It felt like I came back from a year long vacation. Slowly but steadily I feel like life is getting normal.

In the evening Ansh came to pick me up and I left with my dad glaring daggers in Ansh's head. I know that dad like Ansh, but he is just a guy who is still living in 20th century and could not come around to the idea of dating before getting married. Anyways, so Ansh brought me back home because we missed each other. We ate dinner, talked about stuff excluding everything that my parents asked of me because no way in hell I'm going to tell him that until I feel like he is ready. And we just made out while watching the awful movie.
"Baby.." he whispered and began unbottoning my jeans.
"Ansh I have to be home before 12." I warned him even though I don't know what time it is.
"You can stay here." Ansh muttered.
"I can't. I have to go back home."
He lifted up and hovered above me.
"You mean we are going to be like a hiding teenage couple until you get your own place?!"
Duh Ansh. What did you think? My parents would decorate my bedroom for you to come and fuck me in it?
"I think so."
He frowned. "Fuck. We never should have came back." He said.
"I'll come back here for dinner tomorrow. I'll cook."
"Why didn't you say that we had a deadline? I never would've wasted so much time!"
Oh he is talking about sex. I didn't tell him that we had a deadline because I just wanted to spend some time with him today and talk and be silly.
"We'll do it tomorrow.'
"Are you kidding me?! I'm going to have blue balls by tomorrow!"
I chuckled. He can be real childish sometimes. "Ansh don't be ridiculous."
"I won't be able to sleep Kiara."
"Don't make that cute face. Fine, I can be a little late. Let's get naked."
"That's not what I'm saying."
I searched his face. "I won't be able to sleep without you in the bed cuddling up with me."
Aww....now I realise, we have been sleeping in the bed for days now. I don't know how I'll feel in my bed today, all by myself.
"I love you." I told him to ease his agony.
"I love you too." He said and kissed me. I closed my eyes and let him have his fill.

***
Later that night I laid down on the bed and felt strange in my sheets. I felt cold. I miss the warm hard chest pressing against my back.
I tossed and turned around a several times. Ansh indeed got me late for home. And finally when I came back, I couldn't look straight at dad. So I came right into my room. It wasn't like I was doing something wrong. It's just that, I felt awkward when it comes to sex and dad in the same sentence. Mom already gave me the save sex awkward conversation in the day, so I didn't need it again.
Suddenly my phone rang loudly in the quiet room, scaring the hell out of me. I crawled up and picked it up from the nightstand to find, it's Ansh calling me.

This guy.
"Hello?" I put the phone on my ear and settled down in the bed and closed my eyes.
"Baby.." His sleepy husky voice just made the hair on the back of my neck stood straight. The affect he has on me.
"Why aren't you asleep?" He's had to tolerate breakfast with my family. Then he'd had to go to work and gym. Then he'd had to pleasure me on his couch. How is he not tired?
"Why aren't you?" He shoot the question right back at me. Well because, I miss my man.
"Ansh..go to sleep."
"I will. But first tell me what are you wearing?"
Oh my god. That kinky pervert.
"I'm not having phone sex with you."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want to."
"Come on. I've never done it before, let's try it."
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Why not?"
"My mom and dad are just down the hall."
"I bet they're having sex."
"What?! Eww! Shut up!" I whisper yelled at him.
"Come on you know it's true."
"Ansh it's gross."
"Yes it is. That is why I'm asking you to talk about our sex life and not your parents'."
"You are not going to give up right?"
"Nu-uh."
"Fine."

And then it was me and Ansh doing that one thing that I never thought I would do. And surprisingly enough, it was kind of hot. Who would've thought?

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