DESTINATION

PULP

"maybe a first

lost my hunger

lost my thirst

as peace devours me

after years of outbursts"

-100918

I'm feeling a bit dissy, I mean dizzy. Where am I? What is this place? Nothing makes sense. I have this eerie feeling that I just woke up, but I can't even recall what room I'm in. It's spacious unlike my bed, but I feel like I know this room even when I've never been here before. The room is pretty wide, but it feels empty. Not fully empty, it's just like an apartment type of room, and the person who lives here just moved in. The place is pretty simple, no furniture and design at all. If this was my room, there'll be endless amounts of movie posters that I could fit on these walls. The color of the walls is a shade of green, but it's like talking me to saying that it's not green, maybe neon? I don't know, I am not good with colors. As the blur slowly leaves my vision, my feeling also started to kick in. I realized that I was lying on a comforter of sorts, and my knees are elevated. I can feel a light weight on my knees, like someone is laying on it. I heard a static sound, must have been a television. For some reason, there's no sign of panic inside me, just peace. A silhouette departed from the shadows after I slowly moved my legs.

"Did I wake you up?" And there she is. A beautiful face that somehow looks familiar to me.

I was speechless and before I could put a word out, she giggled and laid her chest on me. I started stroking her hair, and she gives me a smile that I will never forget. There I realized that I was dreaming. Just like every time that I start lucid dreaming, I wish I could just stay there a little bit longer. For even just those few moments, I felt home like I never did before.

Before I could even move, the stoplight is now signalling red. And as I looked at the other side of the road, I saw the same long hair and amazing colors from an almost forgotten reality.

I don't give too much attention to anyone at all. I haven't talked to anyone that I like for years. Well, that girl probably doesn't want any of this monochromic loser. But for some reason, I feel invincible and not invisible for the first time. I had to urge to say hi the next time I get to be that close to her again.

I was lost in the dark for a long time, and now I'm a firefly who saw a precious sign of light.