"monochrome visuals
embraced by melancholy
I fought the mirror
I became my own stranger
Now, I'm taking my life back"
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"Good morning, you bastard! Why up so early homes?"
"Good morning, my bitch!"
"What's with that smile, huh? Got laid?"
"Nope. Better. I feel better now."
"Good for you brother."
"Is it okay if we limit the requests we take soon?"
"Huh? Wait, don't tell me. Come here bitch."
"You're hugging me tight."
"I'm just happy for you, you little shit. No homo, and respect!"
"Respect my brother. Thank you."
After my brother went out for work, I prepared my stuff and ironed my clothes. It's been days since I saw Jasmine, and that night, I realized that I have to move forward and always look at the bright side of life. I've been looking to the sky for a long time, looking for a sign of life that will somehow help me fly once again. But I realized that, before I fly, I have to learn how to walk again.
Ever since I lost the letter that I was supposed to give to her, I saw life with colors again. Somehow, those words were better left unsaid. Whatever those words are, they weren't enough to tell her what I really wanted to say. But that night, even without talking about what I wrote and have been thinking about, I managed to speak more about what I feel without even saying those words.
That night, I managed to free myself from all the guilt, and hatred that I laid upon myself. I realized that there are moments that were written to leave sooner or later. Written to be treasured and learned upon, not to mourn for. I finally forgave myself for the promises that I failed to keep, expectations that did nothing but devour me, and lies that I keep telling myself leading me to hate myself even more.
I freed myself from everything that blinded me to seeing the colors that are just waiting to paint me with life.
"Gin"
"Sensei! There are ten schools that accepted your resume. The closest interview is in a few days, should I reply yes?"
"Yes Gin, go ahead."
I smiled as I look at everything with life, knowing that I finally got out of it, and even with little steps like this, I'm beginning to walk again.
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RomanceA coming of age story following a guy who tries to move on after ending his long relationship while trying to work his life out all on his own.
