i miss you

Luke Hemmings

*Luke's POV*

"Hurry Luke," her anxious voice filled the phone static as I grabbed the keys to my managers car. "I'm scared."

"Hey, you're fine. Everythings going to be okay. Just keep talking to me, I'm right here." I said, trying to keep the worry out of my voice. "Tell me about the show tonight, did you like it?" I asked in attempt to keep her mind off things.

"Y-yeah. It was g-good." She sobbed. I stepped hard on the pedal. I wanted to be with her, holding her, wiping away her tears.

"Why are you crying?" I don't know where the question came from, but before I cold think it over, I asked.

"I...I just..and he did..I just need you." she breathed as if it took all her energy to say those words but when she did, my heart sped up.

"I need you too. I'm almost there, babe, hang on." It was only 5 minutes later and I was pulling into a ratty, sketchy, trashy motel. The cemented parkinglot had cracks all along the way and there were pot holes everywhere. The dingy doors had dents and a few doors had bullet holes in the middle. Just being here for a second scared me, I couldn't imagine how Katy felt. 

Katy.

"Hey, I'm here, what room are-" I saw a shadow move and it was then I realized it was her. Her arms were wrapped around her torso, holding herself together. What the hell was she doing out here? Did she not understand how dangerous it was?

I quickly put the car in park and hopped out without shutting my door. As fast as I could, I sprinted to her, but just as I was about to throw my arms around her, something stopped me. Maybe it was the pain I went through when I found out she wasn't coming with us. Maybe it was that she completely dropped me from her life when I went on the road. Whatever it was, I couldn't get myself to hug her. I just stared at her as she looked at me, tears pouring down her face. The look in her eyes just about made me crumple to my knees, she was so hurt. 

"Kaitlyn...what happened? Why are you here?" I asked.

"I- I'm scared, can we just go?" she moved away from me, heading to the car but reflex allowed me to reach out and grab her arm. "Let go.." She whispered harshly, her voice cracking just a bit just before she pulled away from me and climbed into the passanger seat.

Shaking my head, I walked to the drivers seat. "Where do you want to go?"

"I don't care." Her body was positioned in a ball as she leaned against the window. What ever happened while I was gone really hurt her. I shouldn't have left her. I knew I wouldn't be able to protect her from a million miles away, so why did I go? Well, I can't change it now, but I'm sure as hell going to try to make her better. Pulling out of the parkinglot, I had only one destination in mind. 

It was a good fourty minutes of silence before we finally got to the building where we shot Don't Stop. I got out of the car, and went straight for the back way to get to the roof. I knew Katy would follow behind because she was too freaked out not to. I didn't look back once, but I knew she was there. The moment I reached the top I went to sit on the ground by the  edge of the skyscraper. She came to sit by me, but I refused to look at her as thoughts filled my mind. I felt my jaw clenching with tension. What do I even say? A part of me is pissed at her for leaving then dropping me. But a bigger part missed her too much to care how pissed I was. 

"Come here," I said, opening my arms to the still crying angel. She was hesitant at first but once she realized I was safe, I saw her fall into my body. She completely crushed me, grabbing at my shirt and soaking it with her tears, but I didn't give one fuck. I finally had her back. This time I wasn't letting her go. 

"Luke," she choked out. 

"What is it, love? What happened?" I wrapped my arms tighter around her, letting her know that I will protect her from whatever it was. 

"I didn't mean to. I didn't want to. But he didn't stop, and I didn't stop him." I closed my eyes at her words. She didn't specifically say what she meant, but she didn't have to in order for me to understand. "I drank too much because after seeing you tonight, I realized just how much I missed you. And...I..I don't know. I told him I liked him, but I meant that I liked him as a friend. Then he kissed me, and one thing led to another, and now.." She didn't finish. She couldn't. Her sobs took over. "I'm so fucking stupid! Why would I do that? I didn't even like him? I didn't want to, but I had no other choice." Her rambling continued on until I finally realized she wasn't talking about what happened tonight, she was talking about leaving me for him. 

"Shh, you're okay. You're here now and I won't let you go this time, Katy. I promise." I held on, kissing her head as she started to drift off. Finally it was all going to be okay because I had Kaitlyn back.

I shook her awake after an hour because we needed to get back. The entire way to the car, she held onto my hand, refusing to let go, or was it me who held on? I couldn't tell. 

The moment she was buckled in, she curled into a ball, her hand wrapped around my forearm, and fell asleep right away. On the way back to the hotel we were staying at, a thought occured to me as I passed the little motel I picked Katy up from. 

Very cautiously, careful not to wake her, I put the car in park and got out, heading towards the door Katy stood outside of two hours ago. 

I didn't know what I was doing, but the second I got to the door, I banged mercilessly. A familiar face appeared. He wore nothing but boxers, his hair was everywhere and he held his head like he had a bitch ass hangover. And from what I remembered about what Katy told me, he probably did have one. That only added to the fire burning inside me. 

Without thinking, I pushed through him, grabbed Katy's things and started walking out but was stopped by an angry voice. "What the hell do you think you're-"

"I'm taking Katy with me. I'm not going to beat the shit out of you because I don't want to hurt my hand on a fuckup like you, but you better think next time before you take advantage of a drunk girl."

"That girl is my girlfriend, I'll do whatever the hell I want."

"I'll save her the trouble. You two are over." And then I was gone.