reddie oneshots

a crush

"First words out of your mouth should've been 'Hey wanna come to Derry and get murdered' Because then I would've said no." Richie said, Eddie nodded in  agreement and followed Richie.

"I'll meet you at the Inn, Eds. Then we can get out of this shithole." Richie got in his car. Eddie felt something weird when Richie called him that, he felt tingly and a blush crept up his neck and covered his cheeks. Why was he blushing? He'd been feeling weird around Richie all night now that he thought about it, like butterflies had been flying around his stomach.

Eddie shook it off and got in his car, driving back to the Derry Inn. He got out as Richie did, and the two went upstairs. Eddie quickly threw stuff in his huge suitcases, cursing himself for packing so much. Then he heard a knock on his door. Before he could yell for whoever it was to come in, Richie poked his head around the door and smiled, walking into Eddie's room.

"Hey Eds, Jesus you don't pack light do you?" Richie laughed at how many clothes and medications he had.

"My wife would never let me leave without all of it." Eddie finished shoving the clothes into his second suitcase. Richie's smile faltered slightly, of course he was upset Eddie had married someone. The second he heard that high pitched voice, the second he saw Eddie's dimpled smile, the second he'd even gotten the call about Derry, he had remembered Eddie. His Eddie. He'd remembered his feelings for the small, asthmatic hypochondriac who he had always shared a hammock with. And the entire night he had been trying to ignore them, because Eddie was married. But hearing Eddie talk about her, and seeing what she was doing to Eddie, Richie realized who Eddie had married. His mom. And while that was usually the perfect opportunity for a joke, Richie could see Eddie was trapped, wanting to get out.

"She's already called me a million times." Eddie sighed and showed Richie the calls and texts from Myra, yelling at him. Richie had had it, he took Eddie's phone and blocked Myra's number, throwing it into his suitcase and zipping it shut.

Eddie blinked, and then slowly his face split into a huge smile and he was laughing so hard he had to hold onto Richie. Richie joined in, laughing too and wrapping his arm around Eddie. He was still so small.

"I think we need to talk." Richie blurted out, not sure why he had said it. Eddie stopped laughing slowly and looked at him. Now Richie had gotten himself in deep shit. There was no turning back.

"Eddie..." He looked down at the man in front of him, trying to find the words. "When we were younger, I had a crush on you."

"Really?" Eddie said softly. He couldn't explain the feelings exploding around in his heart right now. He felt like his heart was going to pound so hard it fell out of his chest.

Richie did not look the same. He was pale as a ghost, and he looked like he could start crying. His eyes were wide and he was staring straight down. He had always been terrified of his sexuality, and now it was out there. He couldn't breathe.

"Richie..." Eddie slowly reached out, intertwining his short fingers with Richie's long, nimble ones. Richie looked up at him with wide eyes. "I had a crush on you too."

A tear slid down Richie's cheek and he shook his head. "No... no Eddie it's not just that."

"Then what is it Rich?" He creased his eyebrows. Why was Richie so upset over a crush from 27 years ago?

"I still like you! The minute I saw your stupid face my heart threw up all over itself! I've kept this damn inhaler all these years and I didn't even know why!!" He pulled out Eddie's old spare inhaler, it was empty but Richie had never been able to throw it out. Any time he heard someone take a heavy breath, his hand instinctively flew to the inhaler but he had no idea why. Now he knew.

Before he could say anything else, Eddie's tiny body was pressed against him, his arms wrapped tightly around Richie's waist and his face buried in Richie's chest. Richie hugged him back tightly and let the tears fall down his face. He'd been hiding his sexuality his entire life, from this town, from his friends, from himself even. Now, it was out and he was holding the man he loved in his arms. Richie lifted his face, staring down into Eddie's still beautiful eyes, and Richie let his flutter shut and he leaned in slowly. He got so close Eddie could feel Richie's breath against his face, he was mesmerized by the feeling of being so close to Richie. But he gently put a hand on Richie's chest, pushing him away.

"Richie... I can't. I'm married..." Eddie looked up at him.

Richie nodded slowly, moving back away from Eddie. He understood, Eddie had a wife. He wasn't a cheater. But it didn't numb the pain. He felt the aching pain he always had as a child. The pain of unrequited love.

"But... God Richie I want to.."

"What?" Richie's head snapped up and he looked at Eddie.

"I don't love Myra... I-I love you! But I won't cheat on her."

Richie's heart swelled, he couldn't help it. He was grinning from ear to ear. Eddie loved him, he didn't like him, he loved him. And he didn't care how long he had to wait for Eddie to figure this Myra situation out, he would wait another 27 years if it meant he finally got to be with Eddie.

"I love you too." Richie grinned, hugging Eddie so tight he could barely breathe. "Now let's get a goodnight sleep so we can kick this clown's ass tomorrow, and then you can divorce your mom."

"She's not my mom-"

"Yes she is Eddie." Richie grinned, hugging the boy again and then disappearing back into his own room, leaving Eddie alone on his bed again. Holy shit.

i feel like this is really bad but uh part 2 coming soon