UNCONTROLLABLE DESIRE (Jimin X Reader AU)

Chapter 17

"You hate them for breaking you, sksksksk.....you want revenge, you're not vulnerable anymore. sssksssksskkkss Show them who's stronger sskkksskksskks show them that you can be so powerful, you can take control and be whoever you want to be. You can destroy all of them. Sksksksk You're jealous of them becoming better than you and having opportunities that you could never achieve well... you can have all that you desire...sksksksks...

"you're like a beautiful sin that came to punish me and I will gladly accept the consequences"

"YOU'LL KILL ME?!?!"

You jolted from your bed shrieking, you felt yourself suffocated. It was scary enough to see a creepy creature crawling in front of you until it's face was inches apart and it screamed about you.....killing it? It's weird how these dreams or nightmares were becoming more vivid?

Your shirt was wet from your sweat. Even when the nights were cold you couldn't help but be covered in sweat whenever you had these nightmares. You grabbed your phone and looked at the time

5:00 am

You sighed taking off your clothes, you decided to take a shower to wash off the heat from your body. You felt weird already maybe a nice shower is going to make you feel better and you were right it did. You let the cold water hit your skin and wash down on your body. You felt relief from the cold-water temperature. You literally could feel the heat escaping your body. You came out after taking a good fifteen minutes shower washing away your thoughts and worries. You felt fresh and good after a long time. Things were really getting messed up in your life and getting all comfy and cozy was the least thing you expected on your list.

You came out being wrapped up in a towel taking out something comfortable to wear and hence took out an oversized track suit that belonged to your brother. Well yes you loved dressing up in men's clothes; they made you feel snazzy. You let your hair dry on their own making your way downstairs. You opened the fridge to find something to eat, you kept on going back and forth whether to make yourself some pancakes or go for a healthy breakfast when you heard footsteps halt behind you. You closed the refrigerator and turned around only to find your dad with a bottle of chocolate syrup in his hand

"what are you doing up so early?" he asked. You simply shrugged at his response

"I don't know I just.....woke up....but what are you doing up so early with a chocolate syrup?" you raised your brow at your dad who was already getting nervous like he had been caught doing something wrong "you know how mom feels about you having a sweet tooth, you need to control yourself dad, it's for your own good"

"well not when your mom wants me to lose control looking like that" he scoffed putting the syrup on the kitchen slab, you narrowed your eyes at his response and were going to ask him what he meant when it hit you 'fuck why did he had to put it that way, why can't he just cover up like normal people he was terrible at lying and you didn't want to know what happened up there, knowing that your parents are doing 'it' is the last thing you need on your mind'

"uh...so I'm gonna go and take a shower and your mom's uh...."

"dad you don't need to explain me anything...please just...go" you said turning your face away from your dad. You felt grossed out and you lost your appetite at the very minute. The worst part about this whole thing is that your dad used the truth to cover up the lie which means you know they're both gonna be in the shower 'God why did he had to say it out loud' you heard his footsteps going away and sighed out of relief. Your dad was a terrible liar and you wished sometimes he would take classes from you, but who were you to tell yourself that you're a good liar, Jimin would always see right through you.