Fallen for you (taejin bts fanfic)

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TAEHYUNG POV

I couldn't understand the weird feeling I would get whenever I was with Jin hyung. It's like my whole body would stiffen but when I would hear his soothing voice, I would immediately relax. My whole face would burn. A blush would uninvitingly make its way to my cheeks. My heart would refuse to calm down and I would feel butterflies erupt in my stomach.

But I did understand, I just couldn't believe it. It took me a while to accept the fact that I liked my eldest hyung in that way but I was glad to know what was going on with me.

The way hyung would look at me sometimes when he thought I wasn't paying attention, It made me feel so..loved. It made me believe that what if he liked me back? Maybe I was reading into things but who said I couldn't hope? That is until today.

I had been noticing it for the past few days that Jin hyung seemed different. Well different around me. Whenever I would get close to him or sit near him, he would either move away or get up with an excuse. I could sense the tense feeling from him.

His replies had turned from funny and gentle to rude and insulting. It felt like the sweetness of the apple had suddenly turned bitter. But it was only for me. Because he would still be as he is with the others.

He started to become irritated by my little habits that he used to love. He would tell me to stop being childish and grow up. It was barely noticeable at the beginning but now it had become his regular behaviour towards me. My attempts to try to soothe the now tense atmosphere between would go in vain.

I had even tried to reason out with him if I had done something wrong. I asked bluntly.

"Hyung did I do something?".

"huh? Why would you think that?," he would ask.

"Well..I don't know..I just felt that way,". I would reply looking down unable to tell him the reasons crystal clear.

"Well stop being delusional and let me work," He would say plainly, not taking his eyes off the carrots he was chopping.

And I simply wouldn't be able to tell him that they way he was acting just now, was the reason I thought so.

It was hurting me. More than I wanted it to. I kept searching for things, details in my memories that could tell me the mistake I had made. But I couldn't figure it out. Maybe I was just being delusional like Jin hyung had said.

But my emotions weren't serving me any pity either. I still felt what I felt for my eldest hyung and him treating me this way was making me lose any hope that I had, of him liking me.

And I guess he was right in another way. I was delusional for another reason as well. How could I ever think that he could like me when he clearly saw me as his annoying younger brother. How could I even assume, with no confirmation, that if he was into guys? And even if he was, why would he like his younger brother who he clearly thought was annoying and irritating, when there were so many better guys out there?

It was a frenzy for me and I couldn't stop my feelings for him just like that. I didn't know why he was treating me like this . I didn't know what I did so horribly wrong. Hyung would never get so agitated over the child play that me and the other two maknaes would do, but he did because It was probably me.

We were in the recording studio, recording and discussing details about the songs of our next album. Me, Jungkook, and Jimin were sitting idly on the couch as we had just finished recording our part. Namjoon hyung and Hoseok hyung were talking about the base and ad libs in one of their songs. Yoongi hyung was in studio recording his rap and so was Jin hyung in one of the other studios.

We had nothing to do and using our phones at the moment was not an option. So we decided we would eavesdrop on Yoongi and Jin hyung's recording.

The three of us leaned on the door of the studio Jin hyung was recording in and I could hear his beautiful voice coherently. It was like heaven. His voice was so stable and pure. It was so melodious and smooth like honey. There were no imperfections to be found. He sang with such emotion in his voice like you could feel what he was trying to express.

You could feel his sound waves touch your heart so prominent yet delicately. I was so mesmerized by my hyung's voice, I didn't hear the door open and I fell down at Jin hyung's feet.

"What are you doing?", he asked confused.

I looked up at him and then around me to see that the Jungkook and Jimin were holding their laughter, sitting on the couch pretending to not know anything.

"I-I-I....,". What could I say. I got up on my feet and looked down with a pout on my face.

He lifted my chin up and stared at me for a few seconds with a gentle expression on his face before he said,

"Taehyung..how many times have I told you to be a bit mature?,"

"We were just trying to listen," I replied.

"Listen? Have you not heard me sing before or the song I was singing?,". He said crossing his arms now.

"I know but we were bored and so-,". I began but Jin hyung cut me off with a scoff and said,

"Bored? Seriously taehyung? So since you're bored you're going to go distract others?.

"Hyung, we didn't exactly bother you-,"

"Don't argue me with me Kim Taehyung," Jin hyung cut me off yet again but now with anger lacing his tone.

"You don't get to argue with me after you pull this kind of shit!", he now shouted.

"I'm sorry, hyung," I said softly.

"Sorry doesn't cut it for what you do," he said.

Huh?What I do? So I had done something. I thought to myself as I stared at the floor.

"Hyung, Please don't be mad at Taehyungie. You know that we also take part in this stuff," I heard Jimin say.

"Yeah, in fact I was the one who suggested to hear you sing but hyung it isn't a real big deal is it? I mean we were just hearing you sing," Jungkook added carefully so as to not make jin hyung more angry.

"No, it really isn't kookie. It isn't," He said sighing.

I looked up at him surprised. There it was again. So jungkook and jimin explain it and he understands but he doesn't even let me speak. This just confirmed the fact that I was not delusional about the fact that Hyung definitely was treating me differently.

But I didn't say anything. Again.

"I'm sorry Tae,"he said. "I was just- ah nevermind, I'm just sorry for overreacting. It wasn't really a big of a deal. You were doing nothing. You do nothing".

"I-I-its okay hyung. I'm sorry too. I won't mess around too much," I said.

"No, you don't do it that much-," Jin hyung began.

"No I know hyung. It's okay." I said with a small smile. "And Oh! I just remembered I need to make a call, I'll be back in a few,".

Jin hyung just nodded and I walked to the door as Jimin and Jungkook flashed me an apologetic look to which I mouthed "It's okay". I soon as I stepped out of the studio room, I ran towards the bathroom while tears escaped my eyes. I felt like sobbing as my emotions overwhelmed me. And that's what I did as I sat in the bathroom crying.

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a/n: I don't know why but I feel like this chapter isn't written well but whatever. Hope you enjoyed! Pls vote, comment, it would mean a lot to me.

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