LIAR | QUEEN AU

Chapter 18 - Baby Why Don't You Give Me A Brand New Start

2 Weeks Later

Dear Diary:

Hi, it's John again. I haven't really picked this up in a while. I haven't felt the need to pick this up in a while. Sorry about that.

But, I do now. Life's been crazy. So damn crazy. My two families nearly got torn apart. I nearly lost Julie. God knows what I would have done without Freddie.

She's better now. She goes to school again, and is still somewhat jovial. But I know that day messed her up. She's not as social and is always apprehensive. She always asks me to come with her whenever she has to go out. I feel horrible. She got dragged into this messy spy business.

It's my fault. Freddie or whoever can say it's not, but it is. I got the tracker stuck on me. I wasn't cautious enough and exposed my whole family to those evil agents. We're all in danger. They know where we are. They know where SoR is. Because I was their pawn.

And to think sh*t still got worse. That thing with Brian and Rog... damn... they had just gotten together too, and they tore them apart. I don't think we can be the same after a secret like that was exposed.

I didn't think Bri could ever do that. I was horrified and angry. Roger's one of my closest friends. And he did that to him. But I've had a lot to introspect on what happened and realized that context is very important.

I wasn't there when it happened. I didn't know the true circumstance. So, we've all reached a point of forgiveness. Roger and Brian are still together! Huzzah!

I'm just... stunned. I could've lost the people so important to me just because of one guy. It's so scary. I don't want to lose them.

We nearly lost Bri too. Apparently he got infected or something which was lethal. I didn't understand why he passed out at the time, but I felt an urge of regret in my gut after how I treated him that night. I was rude. Because I was too focused on what he did, versus what he wanted to do now.

And he lost his arm. I can't imagine how hard it must be for him. For anyone. But, I've heard from Rog that's he's doing just fine. I haven't seen him in a while, so I'm not sure.

Miami let me take a break from SoR for a while after that night. He let the whole group take a break. Roger was surprised he was still in the program. But, I'm glad he is.

I haven't seen Fred in so long either. We've texted a bit, but I haven't seen him him. I want to. I want to see them all! Roger's been so tired at school because he's helping Brian out tons.

But he told me he's working on something big for Bri. Don't know how big it'll be, but I'm gonna see tonight. My 2 week break ends in just a few hours, so I guess we'll find out then.

I've had lots of time to focus on school, so my grades are back on A's. I'm quite happy about that. I didn't like having B's and C's. To be fair, it's hard to tackle being a sixteen year old kid and a spy at the same time.

Anyways, I have to leave for school in a few moments. I hope I don't forget to write in this again.

~ Signing off, J Deacon

It felt good to air that out of my system. I can't really talk about it with anyone since it's quite confidential, so it was nice I suppose. I'm not too thrilled to be back on missions yet, but I am thrilled to see everyone again!

I grabbed my backpack and descended down the stairs. Julie was standing around there waiting for me. I smiled and ruffled with her hair.

She groaned, "John!"