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Chapter 60 - I've Been Wrong But I'll Learn To Be Right

Last night, Operation Queen successfully took down Dragon Room London. Without Paul at their head, the facilities around the world will collapse soon enough. We did it. We f*cking did it.

It's hard to believe we're done. But, I'll be able to believe it soon. I'm so ready to resign, you have no idea! I can finally move out of Rog and Brian's room. I can finally go home.

I suppose I should enjoy my final day as an SoR spy. Who knows? This might be the last time I enter HQ. Maybe I can go back to school. I'd probably have to repeat Year 11, but that shouldn't be too much of a bother. It can't be any worse than all the sh*t that happened this year.

Roger knocked on the door, calling for my attention. "Packed your bags?"

"Yeah, think that's it." I nodded right as I zipped up my suitcase.

"So, you're really gonna leave us?" Rog sat down beside me. His tone suggested he was joking, but his demeanor stated otherwise.

"What else is there for me to do?" I scoffed. "It's not like I'll lose contact with you all anyways. I just, well, I don't really want to be part of this business anymore."

"Oh, I get that. Trust me, I do," Roger said with a laugh. "In fact, Bri and I were considering moving out to our own flat. We still want to work with SoR though, but, uh, I don't know..."

I furrowed my eyebrows. The fact that Roger was hesitant about moving in with Brian concerned me. They're literally a perfect couple, so what could be wrong? "Is everything alright?"

"Yeah!" he insisted. "We're fine, Deaks, if that's what you're wondering. I'm just a little apprehensive, that's all."

I shifted around in my spot on the floor, now directly facing Roger. "Oh, really? Would you want to talk about it?"

"It's fine. I wouldn't want to bore you, y'know?"

"Pft! You? Boring? Impossible," I scoffed, which earned a smile from Roger. "Look. You've listened to me ramble and rant for way too many times to count. It's the least I can do to return the favor."

"A-alright," Roger stuttered. He took a deep breath in. "Well, I guess, I'm just a little scared to be committing to something that big-- Wait, no, that sounds bad. I'm committed to Bri no matter what. I think I'm worried to be committing so much of myself without knowing whether Brian really wants to or not."

"Why wouldn't he? Did something happen?"

"A lot has happened, but we've already talked it through, and we're okay. It's just, there's something in the back of my mind that's trying to convince me it's not okay. So, um, I can't help but think he doesn't really want this."

"Roger, you and Brian have been through a ton of sh*t, but what's always happened is you guys prevail together. You think he'd still be by your side constantly supporting you if he didn't want to make this big step with you? It's okay to have doubts, but I assure you, he wouldn't do that. He wouldn't just leave--"

"But he has left." He glanced back up at me with somber in his eyes.

I paused. I sighed, finally realizing what the issue was. "Yeah, but he did that for a mission."

"I, I know. I'm sorry. You're right. I don't know why I'm feeling like this. It's stupid--"

"Your feelings are valid, Rog," I quickly hushed him. "I don't think I've quite been in your place before, but I get having those kinds of doubts; the confusion and anxiousness to continue forward. All I can suggest is to give it a shot. Give him a chance. You love each other, y'know. I'm sure it'll end up well in the end."