A light in the darkness |Nightmare x reader|

Thinking things through

Her mind was racing with a thousand thought as she laid face first into the bet to hide her blushing face. 'we kissed, we actually kissed, I kissed my best friend' she thought in horror. after they had broken up what had turned into a small make out session the girl had quickly excused herself when she realized what happened. it was afternoon the next day and she was still not willing to head out of her room yet. the memory of the library incident capt replaying in her head when she was psyched up to head outside making her backtrack.

she couldn't be in love with her best friend, she just couldn't. wouldn't this make a big mess in the long run? what if they got together and horrible break up. what would she do then, who could she go to then. she couldn't lose one of the closes people she had, the one she trusted the most, her one and only friend for the longest of time... swallowing the lump in her throat before rolling over to lay on her back. If it was a problem before of Nightmare not leaving her mind, she had gotten herself into quite a even bigger problem right now. not knowing what would be worst for her. him kissing back or him not kissing back, she couldn't decide. or if she had actual feeling for him or not.

The idea of him loving her on a more intimate level did actually sound nice. Nightmare was quite handsome, and smart, a secret goofball, he always looked out for her and... she hit herself in the head for letting her mind wander again. she just had to let everything get back like it was before, she couldn't risk losing Nightmares friendship. even if it pained her thinking about not caring about the kiss or these feelings. none of them had said the L word. who did she know it was not another stupid crush. who did she know she actually love him. that was stupid of course she did. he was her friend so of course she loved him. but that didn't explain why she was about to say that three letters sentence that can change so many peoples worlds. "I love you" she breathed out. it feel right to say it, it felt so right to say them to him. but why were she holding back if it feels so right.

because she was selfish, that why. selfish that she wanted him, selfish for wanting his love. was he even capable to love anyone, with all his negative emotions. he did kiss back and he have laughed and smile. god this emotion stuff were taking a toll on her. everything was just so confusing. everything new, every emotion was just a big mess. for now she would just hide her emotions under the carpet for a while and try to forget them. but what would she do if Nightmare loved her too, what if he would like to be together. she couldn't just crush or disregard his feelings. not jumping on any conclusion seems like an good idea. just see where everything headed. if nothing changed, then nothing changed. but if things changed... a light smile formed on her lips as her and reach up and lightly glided over them. the ghostly pressure of the kiss still lingers.

Finally getting the courage to walk the halls again with hunger slightly creeping in on her. thanks to not going out of her room for breakfast. a need to see Nightmare filed her. Pretty sure Nightmare was out today thanks for being cooped up in the castle for four days. Slowly waking trout the longest route to the kitchen while thinking and daydreaming on the way over.

Nightmare had not stop grinning the whole night, barely slept as well. He knew Y/n had bugged him over and over that sleep was important to get better, but he was totally fine. he wasn't sick, well maybe not sick but he was definitely lovesick. her soft lips, her taste, her scent was overwhelming. however, did it mean anything? last kiss did not hold any meaning to it. that kiss was an accidental one so this that matter. was this another hollow kiss that would tease him for the rest of his life. only a memory of something that could be but never was. Nightmare had to get his mind right before he does something stupid. Leaving the castle to terrorize an au for ab it or see if he can find his brother anywhere. Dream and his friends had been awfully quiet lately.