I wake up and look around. My cabin was gone again but I didn't really care. They were all probably embarrassed at the drama that has been surrounding me for a while now. I can't really blame them. I sigh as I get up and walk to the bathroom. I put on black shorts and my Camp Half-Blood T-shirt. I put on tennis shoes with my hair in a ponytail.
I didn't want to leave my cabin. I lay back down on my bed and put my head in my hands. My thoughts were jumbled and I couldn't think straight. I lay there for a while in silence. It was peaceful until I heard someone clear their throat. "Sunny?"
I move my hands from my face and look at Frank who was standing in my doorway. "Yeah?" I say quietly. I didn't feel like talking to anyone even if they were my best friends.
"I heard about.. you know.." He says. I sigh and turn over on my side so I'm not facing him anymore. "Sunny, do you want to talk about it?"
"There's nothing to talk about."
"There's a lot to talk about actually."
"Well there's nothing that I want to talk about, okay?"
"I can't help you, Sunny, if you won't let me." He puts his hand on my shoulder. "Please?"
I glance back at him before finally taking a deep breath. I sit up and pat the spot next to me. "Let's talk." I look up at him as he smiles. He sits next to me. "..What about you and Hazel?"
"We talked about it.. I mean, we're not completely okay.. but it's a start." He looks down at me. "She said that she was sorry. She said that she wasn't even going to try to think of an excuse for what she did because there was absolutely no reason for it." Was Leo just giving me excuses? "I said that we could try again but I'm still upset so I'm not going to trust her completely yet. But I think she knows what she did was wrong. And... I miss her." He says looking down at his hands. Was I just overreating? Should I have given Leo another chance?
"Should I have... given him a second chance?"
"Sunny, I can't answer that. I don't know, honestly. You've been hurt by Leo a lot more than I have with Hazel. You may need time to think through it, and that's perfectly fine! You may figure out that you shouldn't give him a second chance. The situation may be that you're happier without him. Or, you could figure out that you want to be with him for a long time.. and if that's the case then I'm completely sure that Leo would be up for that too. But you can't rush yourself into a decision because then you might not get what you want."
"But... what if I wait too long? What if I realize that I want to be with him but I lost him?"
"He's miserable without you. He'll be up for it."
"How can you say that? He probably hates me! And what if I realize that I want to be with him but he realizes that he's better without me! What happens then?"
"Sunny-"
"No, I'm.. I'm sorry Frank. Can I just be alone for now?" I say, looking down at my hands. I could feel him staring at me. "Please Frank.." I whisper, closing my eyes.
He nods and gets up. He stops at the door. "Do you want anyone-"
"No, thanks Frank." I say quickly. I watch as he leaves. I take a deep breath. "What am I doing..?" I ask myself. I walk over to the corner of the cabin and grab a guitar. I walk around the room as I start to play. I start to sing "How You Get The Girl" by Taylor Swift. "And then you say, I want you for worse or for better. I would wait for ever and ever. Broke your heart, I'll put it back together. I want you for ever and ever." I sing loudly, not caring if anyone heard me.
"Remind her how it used to be, be. Yeah, with pictures in frames of kisses on cheeks, cheeks. Tell her how you must've lost your mind. When you left her all alone and never told her why, why. And that's how it works. That's how you lost the girl. And now you say, I want you for worse or for better. I would wait for ever and ever. Broke your heart, I'll put it back together. I want you for ever and ever." I continue to sing.
