Joonie || NamBTS

28) Request

Namjoon and jungkook fidgeted with their fingers, sharing uncomfortable glances as they sat on the floor, all the other members surrounding them.

Yoongi took a deep breath before speaking. "Kook, care to explain what you were doing so late at night? We were so fucking worried", yoongi growled lowly, making jungkook and namjoon shiver.

Jungkook looked at namjoon as if he was asking for the elder's help. Namjoon sighed softly but nodded his head, holding Jungkook's hand and caressing his knuckles.

He started speaking, telling them about everything that had happened in the past five hours or so. He watched as their eyes widened, dear evident in each of their lenses as he uncovered each and every detailed piece of the truth.

"And then I took him here", he finished, exhaling a deep breath.

Everyone stared in silence. A few seconds passed. Then minutes. And finally after exactly thirty three minutes- yes namjoon had been counting- Jimin spoke up, his voice thick with emotions.

"So, hyung.. You- you're telling us that our k-kookie was going to..", before he could finish, Jin's hand was over his mouth, eyes teary as he shook his head in a silent plea.

Jungkook felt moisture swell up in his eyes because of the guilt and embarrassment. He squeezed Namjoon's hand, gaining the elder's attention. "It's okay", namjoon muttered, caressing his cheek with his free hand.

Silence filled the room again.

Namjoon could tell everyone was debating with themselves. Yoongi stared blankly at the floor, seeming too shocked to look up, cursing under his breath. Jimin and hoseok just kept sharing sad glances, unable to control the tears flowing out of their beautiful orbs. Taehyung just kept looking up between jungkook and namjoon with searching eyes as if to make sure they were there.

But what concerned namjoon the most was the way Jin was behaving. The alpha leader had his head down, staring into nothingness. Even with that position, namjoon could see his tears that kept falling straight onto the floor because of position. The quiver of his lips was completely visible, his hands shaking where he rested them in his lap.

Namjoon couldn't control himself anymore.

He looked at jungkook by his side, who had his head on his shoulder as he kept crying silently. Namjoon carefully held his chin and looked into his big innocent eyes. He looked towards Jin, jungkook doing the same. And namjoon didn't need to say anything as jungkook crawled up to where seokjin was sitting cross-legged with his head down.

He patted Jin's shoulder, throat too sore to even speak. There was a lump in his throat and he couldn't swallow it. Jin looked up at him and the sight broke his heart.

The eldest's eyes were bloody red, face full of salty tears, lips quivering, hands shaking as jungkook engulfed him into a strong embrace.

And he broke.

A loud sob spilling out of the eldest snapped everyone out of their trance. They quickly shuffled towards jin and jungkook and hugged them tightly, starting to cry too. They were unable to control their emotions anymore now that one of them had shown vulnerability.

Everyone but namjoon was joined in on the hug.

Namjoon just smiled sadly as he watched them cry their hearts out, conveying all of their feelings with a simple embrace. It wasn't like he arms didn't itch to just embrace them all but he knew he couldn't. He was their nothing anymore so that would have been totally inappropriate.

Soon, they pulled out of the, all of their faces stricken with teary lines. Namjoon looked down, it was weird. It was very weird that he was feeling like an outside, like he doesn't belong there.

Seokjin wiped his tears and smiled a bit, kissing Jungkook's forehead and mumbling a quiet apology.

He looked at namjoon who was looking down, as if he was afraid to look into their eyes. "Joon", he called out for the youngest rapper.

Namjoon looked up at his name being called and almost jumped onto jin when he saw the elder with his arms open, a small smile resting on his lips as he held the younger in his arms.

Namjoon sobbed into Jin's shoulder, long arms wrapped around wide shoulders. "It's okay, joon. Don't cry", jin said softly, rubbing his back and trying to soothe the younger.

After few minutes of hugging and whispering comforting words, seokjin pulled out of the embrace, taking a deep breath.

He looked at jungkook who looked back at him with panic stricken eyes. Jin sighed before speaking up with a firm tone. "Kook", he called. Jungkook nodded instantly, showing that he was listening.

"I want you to never think like that again. You're beautiful and so, so, talented. And if you feel like that again, come to me, any of us. We're there for you. And we love you, baby", he said, raising his hand and caressing the younger's cheek. Jungkook nodded slowly as few more tears made their way down his cheeks. "I love you all, too. I'm sorry", he said. "No, don't say sorry", hoseok said from behind as he wrapped the maknae with his arms.

"How's your therapy going, hyung?", asked taehyung. Namjoon smiled before answering enthusiastically. "It's going great. Amber is an amazing person. I feel truly comfortable talking to her!".

Jimin smiled. "That's good", he said, patting the elder's back as he rested his chin on his shoulder lightly. Namjoon smiled back, making them swoon over his deep dimpled smile.

"And namjoon...". Namjoon perked up at the mention of his name. He looked at hoseok as if to ask him to continue.

All of them shared a look except namjoon who looked at them in confusion as they seemed to be talking among themselves with their eyes.

Namjoon gulped down. So many thoughts went down his head. What if they wanna tell me to leave? What if they think they're better without me? What if they think I'm the one to blame for kookie's misery. What if-

Before his thoughts continued, a voice snapped him out of his nightmares. "Joonie... I wanna ask something".

It's jimin.

"Yeah?", he replied shakily. Jimin shared a glance at yoongi and seokjin before nodding and huffing quietly.

"Will you... Will you please think about being back with bts again? Please?"