Joonie || NamBTS

27) Back home

"Jungkook-ah", namjoon started after jungkook had calmed down completely. Jungkook looked up at him, wide-eyed and expectant. Namjoon laughed lightly and nuzzled his cheek over Jungkook's head, making him let out an amused watery giggle.

"Let's go home. We need to talk to the members", he said slowly, afraid that he might startle jungkook. Jungkook's eyes went wide and namjoon could see the panic creeping inside his head. "Hey, hey. Calm down, koo. I'm sure they would understand", he said again, rubbing the younger's back soothingly.

Jungkook took a deep inhale before looking up at namjoon, his eyes pleading and moist. "Please, hyung... I don't...", he all but whispered and Namjoon's heart nearly broke at the sight of a defeated jungkook, completely vulnerable.

If he was being honest, he had seen jungkook being vulnerable only three times in the many years they had lived together. One, when he first joined the company as he had broken down in his arms because he missed his family. Two, when he collapsed backstage because of overworking himself. And three, when Namjoon's Mom decided that she was taking him with her. He still vaguely remembered how he had cried and pleaded her to change her mind while all others had stood behind him with their heads hung low.

"Koo", namjoon pulled him even closer before continuing, "I understand that you don't want them to know but they care about you. Don't make the same mistake as me", he said slowly, measuring his words. His eyes shut closed as he relived the painful memory. His heart squeezed tightly as he managed a shaky exhale.

"Hyung... I-I wanna tell them... B-but", Jungkook's lower lip trembled as more tears rolled down his cheeks. "W-what if th-they hate me?", he asked, fear evident in his voice. Namjoon's grip around him tightened as he inhaled deeply. "They would never hate you, koo. They love you. You trust hyung, right?", he asked. Jungkook just nodded in answer.

Namjoon smiled sadly as he kissed the top of Jungkook's head. "Then let's go? You don't have to tell them now, I won't force you but let's go home?", he asked slowly, waiting for the younger's reply. Jungkook nodded hesitantly before he opened his mouth to say something but he closed it as soon as he did. "What is it?", Namjoon asked. He felt jungkook shiver in his hold. " 'M cold", he said it so softly that namjoon almost didn't hear it. Almost. He laughed fondly before shrugging of his coat along with his muffler, wrapping jungkook with it.

Jungkook leaned into Namjoon. They didn't know when it started but both of them started leaning towards each other, their lips almost touching. Both of their eyes closed but before their lips could collide, namjoon's eyes fluttered open and he kept a hand between his and Jungkook's mouth.

Jungkook looked wide-eyed at him before completely leaving his side, looking out of the window because he was too embarrassed to say something.

Namjoon sighed. He never thought there would be a day when he would deny kisses from Jungkook. "Let's get you home", he said. As soon as he started the engine, jungkook heaved a breath of relief. He knew it was wrong wanting to kiss namjoon after all they had done. But he wasn't thinking rational. He couldn't stop himself as the temptation of those luscious lips made him dizzy. He shook his head, trying not to make namjoon anymore uneasy than he already was.

The drive back home was pretty calm, with a comfortable silence surrounding both of them. Namjoon's hands began to shake as soon as they reached the building. He didn't know why he was so nervous. He opened the door and got out before opening the back door only to see jungkook curled up, fast asleep on the seat.

He smiled fondly at the younger before he was reminded that he had to take him back to the other members. He reluctantly leaned forward and shook the maknae's shoulder. "Jungkookie... Wake up", he said slowly. Jungkook stirred in his sleep, groaning as his eyes fluttered open cutely. He looked at namjoon with a cute confused stare before gasping and jumping forward to hug him.

Namjoon stumbled back, almost falling because of the force. "Koo?", namjoon called, not knowing what else to say. "I thought it was a dream", Jungkook mumbled, his voice coming out muffled because of him burying his face into Namjoon's abdomen. Namjoon's mouth turned an 'o' shape before he broke out into a dimply smile. His hand reached down to caress Jungkook's fluffy hair softly. "I'm right here", he said softly.

After nearly ten minutes of staying like that, jungkook reluctantly pulled back, leaving them both cold in the extremely early morning. Namjoon checked his phone. It was a little past four, an hour or two before Seoul wakes up. Namjoon looked at the building in front of him before nodding and taking a deep breath.

He looked back at jungkook who was staring at him intently. Namjoon offered him a small, comforting smile before extending a hand to him. Jungkook walked upto him hesitantly and took his hand. Namjoon nodded at him before stepping inside the building he never thought he would see again.

Jungkook felt panic rising up inside his chest as they got further and further into the hallway. He squeezed Namjoon's hand and the older squeezed it back in reassurance.

As soon as they reached the living room, they noticed the absence of everyone there. Did we have a schedule today? Jungkook thought, before shaking his head. No, there wasn't any schedule for today but the members weren't here. Both of them looked at each other, biting their lips in worry.

"Namjoon! Jungkook!? Shit!".

They heard someone's voice from behind and turned around to see a very shocked looking yoongi, holding his phone with an extremely shaky hand. "Hyung...", namjoon breathed out while looking at the floor, too embarrassed to say anything. Yoongi's phone came near his mouth, all while he stared at both of them in shock.

"J-Jin hyung..."