Joonie || NamBTS

2) Good for nothing

It was a sunny day, namjoon woke up
early to go to the studio. Yoongi had asked him to help with his knew song and our leader was more than happy to do so. He walked out of the nesting room to shower and dress up in some decent clothes.

It was 6 O'clock so without disturbing jin or jungkook, he grabbed his wallet, a sandwich, a cap and his koya mask and went out of the building.

Big hit building was only 15 minutes from their apartment complex so he didn't bother to take a cab or call their driver and just decided to walk there. When he reached their, he went straight to yoongi's studio.

"Hyung!", he called out cheerfully as the studio door opened. Yoongi was listening to some songs when he saw namjoon's reflection on his computer. He smiled brightly seeing the omega looking so cute and happy.

"Hi, baby!", he said before setting his headsets down and turning his chair to welcome the omega with open arms. Namjoon smiled brightly, his deep dimples showing as he sat on his alpha's lap, kissing his cheek shyly. Yoongi smiled gently before kissing the top of the younger's head.

They sat like that for a moment before the elder suddenly remembered the purpose of why Joon was in his studio. "Ah Joonie, I wanted your help with this one song after you finish yours, everything seems perfect but the beat is just mismatched. Can you help me, leader?", he said the last line teasingly. Namjoon blushed and nooded, getting up from yoongi's lap, he sat down on the sofa where his laptop was situated too.

After two hours or more, namjoon was bobbing his head as he listened to his own beat and quietly whispered the lyrics to it. He thought it was really fitting although the beat was lacking some pep.

Namjoon yawned with his mouth wide open. He was kind of tired but he wouldn't allow himself to sleep at night because that's the time he got most of his inspiration and ideas so it was worth it, even if the members didn't know about his habit of sneaking out at midnight.

He wanted to produce great music like yoongi. Speaking of Yoongi. Said man had been trying to get his attention for at least one or two minutes.

"Joon!"

Namjoon flinched as he removed his headphones when yoongi shouted his name. "Umm...What?", namjoon asked with wide eyes. Yoongi just sighed. "I asked you if you were willing to listen to my track if you're finished? I listened to it again and I have been trying to perfect it for at least an hour now but I just can't do it. Something's lacking, I don't know what though. I thought maybe you could help me."

Namjoon nodded excitedly. He always loved listening to Yoongi's raw tracks, he always felt special when he was being the first one to listen to it and he felt even more special when he was allowed to make suggestions and add his own ideas. He loved the fact that his boyfriend trusted him with something so important.

Yoongi held out his headphones for namjoon to be able to listen to his track. Namjoon stood up, moving his lanky legs to stand up and walk to Yoongi's table. But being such a klutz had its disadvantages. His feet accidentally got caught in one of the cords and he stumbled. Usually that wouldn't even matter at all, if nothing had happened.

The bad thing though is that he caught himself at the table but came in contact with Yoongi's still full coffee cup which resulted in the cup falling over, emptying its lukewarm contents all over the laptop of the older. That again resulted in Yoongi's laptop letting out some weird fizzling noises before shutting off.

It was quiet for a moment as Yoongi and Namjoon both tried to comprehend the situation. The quietness before a storm. The elder man's eyes then widened as he understood the situation. He looked at the now black screen of his laptop and mumbled something, desperately pushing keys to get his laptop to work again.

"No no no that can't happen, it can't be fucking happen!" Yoongi's voice changed from desperate to angry. "It's away, everything! All the work I've put into the track, it's gone!" It dawned on Namjoon what he had done and he felt horribly guilty.

"Oh my gosh, Yoongi-hyung, I'm so sorry, I didn't intend doing that!" The younger man was bowing repeatedly to show how sorry he was. As he looked up at Yoongi, he was startled by the angry expression that were reflected on his boyfriend's usually soft features. Yoongi wasn't easy to anger but right now it seemed as if he was a ticking time bomb that could blast any moment.

"Do you really think an apology could change anything!? I worked so hard on this and you just ruined it!!" Yoongi's face was red with rage as he growled at Namjoon at the top of his lungs, his alpha tone resonating throughout the room. Namjoon was terrified, he had never seen his hyung so mad. Usually, when Yoongi was disappointed or angry at someone, he just gave them the silent treatment. He never screamed. Never.

"I-I.. Alpha, I a-am really so-"

"Just fucking cut it out! Just... just stop it! Fuck off!" Yoongi was breathing heavily now, glaring at the taller man with a gaze filled with fury. Namjoon felt a pang in his heart at the harsh words thrown at him.

"Alpha, s-seriously, I'm so so-"

"Just go, alright?! Go, I said! you're good for nothing! Nothing!" As if to emphasise it, he slammed his hand onto the table, hard. Namjoon didn't say anything but nodded as he quietly turned around, while trying to swallow the lump in his throat. He didn't allow himself to cry. Not in front of his boyfriend.
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When Namjoon got home, he was met by jin. The elder was enthusiastic as ever. "Namjoonie~~",he sing sang when he saw the tall omega. Namjoon's eyes were aching to let out all those unshed tears when he heard such a sweet voice calling for him with so much affection. He almost regressed but quickly shook his head from doing so. "I'll talk to you later, Jin-hyung", he said quickly before running upstairs to his room and locking the door behind him.

He fell on the soft mattresses and let out a pained sob when he remembered what yoongi had said earlier that morning.

Good for nothing.

Of course yoongi had been angry at others before but he never showed anger to namjoon. Never. Not even when he broke his new headphones. That pained him even more because he was mad at him and not only that, he even went so far to use such harsh words at him.

So he cried. He was so so sad that he made yoongi mad but what pained him the most and painted him with guilt was that he ruined the elder's 1 month hard work. He Knew how difficult it was to produce those beats again. He was fucked. Well, literally.

Namjoon looked out for his Ryan and when he found him, he cried even more. And before he could even comprehend anything, he was regressing.

"Y-yoonie scowd me, wyan!", he wailed loudly, hugging Ryan tightly to his chest as his tears soaked the plushie. "B-but Y-yoonie no b-bad", he sniffled. "J-joonie b-bad, w-wyan. Joonie made yoonie- m-mad",his lower lips trembled as he whimpered with extreme sadness. "J-joonie bad! J-joonie bad", he kept hiccuping and letting out broken sobs before he drifted to dreamland.