Joonie || NamBTS

38) Everything goes

"Hyung, are you nervous?", jungkook asked, sitting beside the youngest rapper. Namjoon looked at him and smiled. "Well, not much. But yeah, I'm pretty nervous about it", namjoon inhaled, resting his head on Jungkook's arm that was around his own shoulders.

"Don't worry, you'll be fine. Army love you", jimin said, reassuring his mate with a bright smile. "Jiminie's right, Joonie. It's just ten minutes or so", hoseok said as he sat down on the floor with yoongi and jin, infront of the couch.

Taehyung nodded as he squeezed Namjoon's knee, making the elder look at him. Taehyung nodded assuringly and that was enough to make him smile.

"Okay, so I'm gonna start", seokjin announced and the vlive started. "Hello, army! It's been a while! How are you all doing?", jimin started with a huge grin.

"Well, I hope you have been fine. I'm sure you missed us, didn't you?", taehyung asked playfully and the boys laughed when the comments started flooding with purple hearts and lots of other encouraging words.

"Okay, so now the most important thing. We've gathered here for an important announcement", yoongi started and namjoon clenched his fists, trying to stay calm and collected.

"As you all had been informed by Bighit, our Namjoonie here was going through a harsh time. I'm sure you must be very worried. So now that he's okay, we all want to let you know that the situation's under control now", seokjin spoke, his voice authoritative and serious.

"I think Joonie would like to speak", hoseok said, looking at namjoon with a hopeful smile. Namjoon nodded and faced the screen directly. Taking a deep breath, he started.

"Hey, army. I missed you very much. And I know you did, too. As seokjin hyung mentioned, I was going through some-", he paused, shook his head and started again,"A lot of shit. Oops! Sorry for cursing", he chuckled and everyone did too.

The surroundings suddenly felt gloomy as namjoon continued, "I just want you all to know that even though I get stressed and overwhelmed sometimes, I don't regret anything and I love you all very, very much".

Jungkook patted his hair to comfort him. "Yeah, so it's just that, I'm in a better place right now. Maybe not the best but I'm trying to reach there. I hope you all understand and support me throughout. So that when the time comes and I have to let go of you or you have to do so, we don't feel sad and just be grateful and happy, remembering the good times we shared. I love you so, so much. Please take care and don't worry about me", namjoon said, voice cracking up as he tried concealing the heaviness in his heart.

His eyes turned glossy and pink, and he smiled softly, showing his Army that he was okay, he was fine. Taehyung looked at namjoon and then at the screen. "Yes, guys. We love you! And we hope you'll keep supporting us, especially our Joonie hyung!", he said, grinning toothily, voice filled with ecstasy.

"Okay, then. We'll be back next time with a more happy live. Promise!", hoseok said excitedly and they all nodded, watching fondly as the comments read:

"Joonie, We're so proud of you, I hope you're okay"

"baby we love you... thankyou for sharing this with us.. We understand"

"Oh god, you guys look hot... Why does namjoon look like he's going to cry? Wait, I don't understand??"

"I don't know what you're saying but I love you💜💜💜😭"

"Lemme grab my popcorn and wait for subs"

"Sorry grammar seem off.. I'm I-Army... Korean I can understand... But difficult to speak, type... This is translating text... Junie, you're okay I hope... We'll always love you... Saranghae💜💜"