Life goes on

Leaving

You may have left 
But I learned how to love again
I fell asleep and didn't think of you
Your face wasn't in my dreams

I learned what a good night sleep is
My heart broke but I rebuilt it
It'll be a while before I let my guard down
Cause it took me a long three months to build it up

I may not smile like I used to
My laugh may be different
The way I'm anxious around everyone
Or I'm zoned out might throw you off

I had to learn how to have an appetite
Relearned a good night sleep
Learned how to not cry over you
I stopped calling you after a drink or two

My dreams aren't full of you anymore
What we had feels like a distant memory
I can still see the way you smiled at me
Or the way I still feel your hand in mine

My tears don't cry for you anymore
My teeth don't smile for you anymore
These eyes don't sparkle anymore
I ain't learned how to trust again

This boy I've been seeing makes me smiles
He reminds me a lot of you
Y'all have the same spark in your eyes
Y'all have the same sense of humor

I'm learning how to love again
I'm learning how to trust again

I don't wait up until 3 AM to talk to you
I don't get up at 7 AM to tell you good morning
I cried all night and all day for you

I want to go running back in your arms
When I didn't have any nightmares
Take me back to the times I was happy

I've defended you for so long
I made myself look bad
I didn't want to see you in a bad way
Today's the day I'm changing that

You took the easy way out
Broke up with me over text message
Didn't have the heart to say it to my face
It broke my heart so much more

I thought I was easy to talk to 
Until we couldn't hold a conversation
It was like we were running out of time
The clock wasn't on our time anymore

I wanted a brand new day 
One where we were still friends
Unfortunately, that wasn't the case

I catch your eye and you look away
It's like we're holding our breath
Cause we never had any closure
Oh man, I wish we had

Sometimes I wish you had made me mad
So I'd have a reason not to like you
I've defended you til this day 
I would've given you the world

All you want is someone in your bed
You didn't want a relationship 
I really wish you had

I think about how good we would've been together
Looking back at the memories makes me tear up
Not a pretty cry cause all I want is you to come back

Come back and I'll give you forever
I just want to go back to happier times