Life goes on

Checkmate

My heart is aching for you today
My brain knows otherwise
I feel like I'm in war between my brain and my heart
One says, "get him back."
My brain says, "don't hurt yourself all over again."

I wish he would make the first move
His goofy smile and accent are everywhere
I can feel his stare and I just wish he would make a move
I could be right back in his arms right now

His hazel eyes are in my dreams and the way he made me feel safe
I haven't felt safe since the day I was in his truck
Should I make a move and be reckless with my love
And end up broken-hearted again?
Or should I be sensible and miss him all the time?
And maybe there will be a different outcome?

I can't win this war so I'll sit right here
I'm afraid to feel the way I'm feeling right now again
I can't feel the same as I did a year ago.
It took me a whole year to finally move on

I haven't moved on fully, but it's not the same
I just want one more date, one more kiss, one more everything
One more lifetime where I was still in his arms

Feeling this way is a terrible thing. It's like not looking up at the stars
It's just something I can't live without
He was my everything and I would have given him the world

I loved him but I was too afraid to tell him
Now, it's too late and I regret it every day
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them

This war between my heart and my brain must be a stalemate
Cause I don't think I can make up what I want to do
Send me a sign or just make a move that you are still interested

My heart is healing piece by piece but it's not the same
Cause it's like a puzzle and the pieces are in the wrong spot
One day at a time, one look at you, and one more time I remember
I remember the days of you and me and what we could have been

Tomorrow is another day, and I may feel a little differently
I might feel the same, but who knows... not me
I certainly cannot make up my mind or my heart
Just wish I could see us in a different lifetime

You healed me and made me feel beautiful
Then you broke me and I felt like I was an elephant
I don't think that was your intentions, but it's just the way I feel

Checkmate, I don't need you anymore 
So go hook up with other girls and keep your reputation
I've got other guys ringing up my phone
Your ring was the one I wanted but not anymore