Life goes on

To the guy,

To the guy, who was gone way too soon
To the guy, I'm going to name my kid after
To the guy, who helped me have faith in Jesus
To the guy, who helped me over my first break up

There aren't words to express how I am feeling
There aren't words to express how anyone is feeling
The world became a little less bright after you were gone
Your smile and words of wisdom aren't on this earth 
They are above in heaven where God must have needed you

I look around in hopes of seeing you standing there
But reality hits me like a brick when I realize you aren't there
I realize that I won't see you again until I'm in heaven
Which I don't think it's fair because you were the one to lead me to Him
I thought you were always going to be there until you weren't

I miss seeing you cutting the grass or making fun of me
I miss seeing you messing with the whole bunch of us
You were always dancing and cracking jokes 
Which makes me jealous of the people up in heaven 

Pictures are everywhere of you in my head
I see you falling out of the chair on New Years
I see you trying to do a backbend beside me
I see you putting the blinds up in my room
I see you cracking a beer at the shop

It's almost been a year and we still haven't healed
We still haven't stopped crying
Your name wasn't on the calendar for birthdays this week at church
But we all knew it was yours because none of us have forgotten
I cannot wait for the day we will see each other again 

There are little moments that remind me of you
I hear songs that you loved and it's just a reminder
There are moments that I think you've forgotten about me
But the next thing I know you're reminding me that you are there

I'm mad that God took you from us way too soon
But you wouldn't want me to be mad at him 
Cause you were beyond ready to go 
You talked about Jesus and that He was your best friend

Your best friend talks about you every now and then 
But we're all crying and we look like we're at your funeral again
God got the very best person in the world when He got you
He got someone who got us through the tough times 
He got someone who got us laughing until it hurt

I got your shot glass in my room and I take a shot every now and then
But only when times are tough and I want to talk to you
Cause I feel like you are right there when I do
And I always toast to you and the good times we all had

Here's to the first couple of weeks that you aren't going to be here
The first Christmas and New Years that aren't going to be the same
I miss you and sometimes it's easy but tonight I'm drowning
I know you wouldn't want us to cry over you
But everyone misses you and we can't help it