My Alluring Indiscretion

Chapter 48- I Love You

'Ocean Eyes' by Billie Eilish

'Say My Name' by 

'Dance Again' by Jennifer Lopez

'Chasing Cars' by

'Finally Found You'

Emma's PoV

How was I supposed to feel as opposed to how I felt. Was making love for the first time supposed to be awkward and painful? Because here I was further away from pain than ever. It wasn't awkward, it wasn't odd. It was absolutely perfect and quite literally breathtaking.

Never in a million years would I have thought my first time would be in a cottage on Christmas Day. But here I was lying naked and happier than ever. Leo and I were still wrapped up in each other. Our legs and arms intertwined under the sheets. His minty breath fanning my face and his dominant scent energising my nerves.

I was insatiable when it came to him. I wanted more and more with each taste. We had gone at it more than a few times and I felt raw and alive. I was afraid to get up. Knowing full well I would fall over my boneless legs. I was beyond enthralled in reliving his every touch on my skin that set my heart on fire.

Leo was drawing abstract patterns on my bare back lovingly. It was bewildering seeing a gentle side of his when a only few moments ago he was carnal.

Was it crazy that I wanted more. The rougher he got the greater was my release into oblivion. Leo was really holding back earlier. Because once I was comfortable and craving for more he showed me just how good it could get. We couldn't possibly get any closer and yet I wanted him to hold on tighter.

It was weird and illogical how easily all of my anger decimated. The last three months was a blur but I knew it was real. And nothing could change that.

"What are you thinking about?" Leo asks. I snuggle further into him and shake my head. "About the months I spent alone" the months that came after he stole my heart and broke it like a beautiful mirage.

I feel Leo go ridged under me. I lean back and look up at him but he keeps looking up at the wooden ceiling.

"Leo" I call out. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. "Hey" I palm his face with my hands making him look at me. I sigh when he still refuses to look at me. "Look at me" I say softly and he slowly opens his eyes.

"I couldn't breathe" he whispers. "Every day was a blood-soaked battle. I questioned my existence. I questioned my sanity. Nothing made sense. Every cell in my body was crushing me from the inside out. There were times I thought I imagined you and that's when I felt like leaving it all behind". My breath hitched. The thought of a world without Leo was absolutely terrifying and torturous.

"Hey, I'm here. And I'm real" I kiss his forehead. Leo crushes me instantly by wrapping his heavy arms around me. It was like he was scared I would disappear any second.

"Don't you ever say things like that" I brush his hair with my fingers. Adoring his precious face. "I love you" I whisper in his ear and his eyes shoot to mine. I don't miss the small smile that appears on his face. The pressure of his arms around me increases but I don't mind it.

"Never stop saying that to me". He whispers and I play with a lone strand fallen on his forehead.

"I love you" I say.

"Again" he whispers.

"I love you". He pulls me in tighter. "Not enough" he insists and I laugh.

"I love you, I love you, I love you Leo, with all of my heart". I whisper, my eyes beaming with happiness. Leo nuzzles his face in my neck satisfied.