The One and Only (On Hiatus)

Chapter 17; alone

Hope you all had a great Christmas or whatever you celebrate!! And Happy New Years!

Kia

It's been two weeks since we left to stay with mom. And honestly...

It's been horrible. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere anymore. Riley's dad got a job in Orange County so he ended up moving. He said we should take a break, but he just started dating Chloe. They were always to close to just be 'friends'. Riley was my first boyfriend.

I gave him my Virginity. I gave him my first kiss. I spent so much time and energy on him just so he could date one of my closet friends.

I'm not the same person I was before. I skip most of my classes.

23 days ago I smoked my first cigarette. I liked it. Mom has a few bottles of liquor I take a swig couple times a day. I haven't slept in days.

Everyone around me would say I'm having a identity crisis. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not.

Christmas was last week and I got all my brothers their stupid little gifts.

I really didn't care anymore. Kai went back with the boys and I stayed with mom.

She and Tyler are trying so hard to help me but I think it's pointless.

I don't really have a good reason to live anymore.

My brothers would get over it eventually...

Right?

Sorry for short chapter. I'm easing my way back into writing after a month, Thanks for reading!